True Heart Feelings - 心故事

Nothing more than a sorry

2012-01-23T00:03:00.000-08:00

I know I owe you a apology because of what I've done. What's exactly wrong with me? I kept on acting like a jerk. Even if I'm being scolded by you, I will still act like this. Is it because that I depend on you too much? Or is it that you once gave me hope but now, you're ignoring me again.. I don't know .. You're so different from the rest. I remember I wasn't like this when I was with Baby. [I'm still used to calling you Baby] I remember sending B. 1 message that i regretted for the rest of my life. Sigh, i wish i could act like a mature young-adult . Just tell me, what's wrong with me ? I've never given anyone permission to scold you, yet I'm granting you the priority now.

Pink for them

2011-11-29T21:48:00.000-08:00

Some would ask me why k-pop? Do you even understand?! If I were to answer it a few years ago, my answer would be, "I agree.. What's the point of being so crazy about them?" But right now, my answer is very simple. "Cos I find them interesting". Short and simple answer. I'm currenly crazy for Girls' Generation and Super Junior & f(x) [not long ago] . I find their music quite nice and even learnt korean because of that. What I really like about them is because of their voices. The 9 of them : Most of them can sing really well while the others can dance well. Some would say that it's because of their looks and their legs that makes me appeal to some. For me, I like their voices. They have a dorky leader, Taeyeon, who makes people laugh without herself knowing it. Taeyeon also has a wonderful voice which can go really high ~ A bright Sunny who is famous for her ageyo, a cheeky Sooyoung and a playful Hyoyeon known for her dancing skills. Till now, I still can't figure out Yoona quite well but the way she speak, is very organised. Yuri, the silly and innocent girl who doesn't know how to control her laughter sometimes. Used to be least-favourite, Jessica, turns out to be a really amusing person. Known for her cool personality and violence, I like her high-pitch voice. "Never run even if you're late" - That's her motto but I've seen her breaking it several times with her girls. :) Seohyun, the honest maknae who is still in her 20s, always caring for her unnies. Lastly, my bias, Tiffany, who is known for her eyesmile. I believe that it's because of her personality and her background which makes her my favourite. She can be rather straight-forward at times and knows how to express her emotions. Her husky voice is one which I envy a lot. Seriously, I admire them a lot. I want to have Taeyeon's voice, Sooyoung's legs, Sunny's cuteness, Hyoyeon's dancing skills, Yoona's way of speaking, Yuri's hyper mood, Jessica's cool personality, Seohyun's honesty and Tiffany's kiddy personality.

From Boy To Men

2011-11-08T00:13:00.000-08:00

Just send my brother to Pulau Tekong today . Hmm, to be honest, I was actually counting to the days when he'll be enlisting a couple of months ago. But yesterday night, I burst out crying. The thought that he will be in some isolated island. I almost cried while having the last meal before he goes for his NS. I used to quarrel with him a lot when we were young. I would prefer to quarrel with him everyday like how we did in the past rather than become so cold with him right now.

This morning, woke up at around 6:30 am to prepare. I guess that Bro didn't sleep a lot too, he woke up very early. :( Had Mac Breakfast @ White Sands . Saw some botak guys too . Aww, my brother with that almost-bad-head makes me feel like sayang his head so much! :D He looked so young with that hairstyle. He loves his precious hair so much, I wonder how he can shave it so easily. Took a boat to Pulau Tekong . This is the first time I'm travelling on a boat, din't noe tat it would shake so much but luckily, I got something to distract me. We were separated when we reached there. Went to tour around the BMTC, was so much better than those in the past. Got pool table, good quality beds and facilities especially the food, it's so much better ! or maybe it's the first day so they served you good food first.

Headed to the auditorium and they recited the oath. Ohh, i feel so proud of my brother hahah! I guess that I miss him more than my parents did. :) When I first stepped into the girls toilet, the smell is totally __________ . Okay, that's the only bad thing. 2 weeks more before I get to see my brother again and hear stories from him. :D Hope he'll get enough sleep bah! He's an owl! :P Don't worry about daddy and mummy ! I will take good care of them *with a cheeky smile* Lol, I hope to see you become a more 'man'' brother okay! Btw, your muscles are already big and solid enough, don't train until got 12 packs hor! Hope to see you transform a 堂堂正正的男人！加油！

The right choice

2011-10-18T01:09:00.000-07:00

I had a really exciting day today. Firstly, I got back all of my papers except for chinese .. hmm, a B3 for Combined. Hum. is never satisfying. I dropped from A1 to A2 then B3 . I feel that my source-based are really weak. My math was ________ . Lucky, Mrs Lee still marked my paper despite that I din't do 1 qns on 1 page and I wrote that her baby is overweight. Hahaha! Well, I had no mood to study Math at that time. I knew I wasn't able to focus that time, when I was studying. At least, overall still passed. Someone occupied my mind. My english results is still considered okay. I'm so glad that I passed my summary after so long. I'm not good at summary ~

F&N still dk results yet cos cher haven mark section c but I know my other sections results already , still not bad luh! :DD Bio was _____ totally out of words when i saw my paper. Just when I felt that the paper was easy, it shocked me ! I thought that I'd be able to get good results cos I did revised for 5 hours ! despite that I have to study for ss for the same day too! :( Was really quite sad luh but didn't want to argue for marks since Mr. Ang already marked until like that and I dun think that I'd be able to find enough marks for me to pass too. Also, Mr. Ang is unwell today. Was surprised that he could make it to school despite that his whole face was bloody red . Haix !

LASTLY, IT'S CHEMISTRY TIME ! :D One of the papers which I've been waiting ever since I sat for it. To be honest, I wasn't sure if I could meet my teacher expectations. I was damn happy when she announced that I'm the highest. 56.5/70 - to me, it seems like a dream ! :P nevertheless, it's not the time to be proud ! Still have to see overall ! my bio really pulled me down. Hope to achieve my targets ! Jiayous ~

Your smile is worth everything. You were the one whom I've been waiting for.

The original might not be the best

2011-09-25T00:04:00.000-07:00

' God, please give me the strength. Please help me. I feel so tired and I really need Your help. '

Hey peeps, back to posting again since I have the time. Last friday's practical was really a shocking one. I'm still suffering from post-practical feeling . I tell you, I won't even dare to eat salmon for th next few days. Not that my one was horrible, it's just that 4 dishes in 2 hours to a person who doesn't even know how to cook maggie mee, is a big challenge. Lol, I'm not a spoilt child or whatsoever, it's just that my mum would say that 我是越帮越忙 everytime I step into the kitchen, so I might as well use the time to practice my guitar. Sometimes, I feel pissed off by my friends.

When you stepped on my toes

2011-09-15T01:30:00.000-07:00

Seriously, I was really quite pissed off during P.E lesson today. Let me tell you all what happened ..

Yesterday : We were playing handball with 3/7 girls too . While we were playing, she came to block me [man-mark] me. Instead of using her hands to block me, she used her elbow which accidentally hit both of my shoulders. I know it's just a game so I didn't really care about her and continued with the game. However, she treat it more like a boxing show. She still hit my lower chin .. I wanted to tell her that but since our class are neighbours, shall not make a fuss about it.

Today : I didn't manmark her. Kept on playing until the final minute. She got the ball and wanted to hit the cones. However, I was there. I used my hand and block the ball. Somehow, she stepped on my leg and led to a red spot. Pissed off totally. Now that I'm cooled down alr, shall let the matter go

No money , no talk

2011-09-09T00:00:00.000-07:00

Decided to unprivate my blog again for those who want to see. Hmm, the reason why I am so angry this morning is because of my mother's family again. My uncle is going to get married and he doesn't have any money!!! WHAT NONSENSE IS THIS? IF YOU DO NOT HAVE MONEY, WHY GET MARRIED IN THE FIRST PLACE? DON'T EXPECT US TO FEED YOU AND YOUR WIFE NXT TIME. My grandfather made a very unreasonable response. He said to my mum that since she's the elder sister, she should sponsor some of it. Like hello, that day then u said that 女儿就像是泼出去的水, now still expect my mum to pay for his wedding? Since when did that irresponsible uncle of mine did something good? I don't even know why he's getting married in the first place. He got married once but divorced. Then, he got himself multiple of girlfriends. So, what's the point of getting married? Don't be a burden to your wife okay?

You all should be glad that although my mum is married, she still go back to her family everyday. My father doesn't complain, we all know that she's a filial daughter. Grandpa, open your eyes BIG BIG. MY MUM IS THE ONE WHO HELPED YOU EVERYTIME WHEN YOU HAVE FINANCIAL PROBLEMS ; NOT THOSE SONS OF YOURS. I TELL YOU , SINCE WHEN DID MY MUM BRING YOU ANY TROUBLE? I'M SICK OF ALL OF YOU. THE REASON WHY I AM STILL CALLING YOU UNCLES AND AUNTIES IS BECAUSE OF MY MUM. ONE DAY, I MIGHT JUST RETALIATE BACK. In case you people are calling me a baddie, I shall give a brief description of my mother's family. I won't say about my grandparents though, i know it's right for my mum to take care of them.

2nd uncle : Seldom visit my grandparents. His wife sot sot de, doesn't allow his son to visit my grandma at all for about 15 years already. Do you know that how much they miss him?

4th uncle : Getting into trouble every single time. Firstly, borrowed money from loan-sharks. Causes trauma to all of us. Now, getting married but no money. Still dare to borrow money from my mum. Even his debts were cleared by my mum. Call yourself a man.

5th uncle : Nothing to complain about though but I've no idea why he's always siding with his tenants everytime. 我们不是慈善机构！

6th uncle : Doesn't earn a lot but his wife certainly knows how to extort money from my mum. Birthday cakes, pizzas .. etc. Din't even give me angpao anymore !

Seriously, these are all the males in my mum's family who have really caused me a big headache. My mother isn't your atm machine. Don't ever come and approach her for money again. Don't make me hate you all so much can ? Before you even borrow money from us, return us back the money you borrowed last time. If this continues on , I can't promise that I will sever ties with all of us . And that's for real. 我们黄家和我妈，不是这么好欺负的。。总之，这次欠我妈多少，我要你们通通一毛钱也不剩，还给我们。

Not a smooth day

2011-09-01T00:34:00.000-07:00

Firstly, daddy's sick. It seems like these few months, many of us have been sick. Secondly, that 3km walk today made my toes to have blisters. Damn it, it's freaking hot and tiring too. Why do we need to walk anyway? ACES Day so what? We can do other exercises what, who say ACES Day must walk one leh? Thirdly, my results.

The one which makes me the most angry one is the F&N results. LIKE HELLO, I DID ALL THE WORK ON TIME AND I SWEAR THAT IT'S ALL PROPER WORK. LIKE WTH, YOU GAVE ME A E8 FOR THE COURSEWORK. YOU DIDN'T EVEN TELL ME WHEN'S THE DEADLINE. YOU ONLY TOLD US ONCE AND IT WAS UNCLEAR. YOU DIN'T EVEN MENTION WHO HAND UP OR NOT. AT LEAST IF YOU'VE TAKEN THE INITIATIVE TO TELL ME, I'D HAVE SENT IT TO YOUR EMAIL INSTEAD OF LETTING YOU DANGLING INSIDE MY THUMB DRIVE. BECAUSE OF IT, IT PULLED DOWN MY GRADES. UNREASONABLE.

I've since challenged Hui Ru in academic results. One day, I'm gonna win you. :) I feel so indignant when I lost to people whom I shouldn't have lost. Even now, I feel the same way too. Xinyi told me something which she should have never said to me. To me, she's just so different from my peeps. The way she reacted sometimes just makes me angry. Telling me that Jane worked so hard for her studies. LIKE HELLO, I WORKED HARD TOO OKAY. HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT SHE'S THE ONLY ONE WHO WORKS HARD?! I know you're rich but I feel that you're simply too pampered. You can't even tolerate a little pain and bitterness. Knee pain so what? Never ask you run 3 rounds also, only ask you to stand there and pass the ball, you also complain. Complain hot, complain when something accidentally hit you, complain that the food is not nice, etc. I'm trying to bear with your actions already. Sometimes, you don't even reply me msg, why should i reply yours too? You gave me lots of reasons but to me, reasons are just simply excuses. I feel that being with you girls changed me so much. Why should I compromise with you?

Nvm, it's Agnes's birthday next week. I know you love me lots. If you peeps notice, my attitude towards her changed. The reason why I treat her so nice is because I've once lost her as a friend and I've lost a friend because of my attitude already. My friends have their own set of thinkings, they won't side with me everytime too..

The first time I'm into politics

2011-08-28T00:04:00.000-07:00

To be honest, I'm really disappointed with the results. I believe that Dr. Tan Cheng Bock would make a perfect President. You people should really have looked at these..

Representing the PAP, Tan was elected as a Member of Parliament for Ayer Rajah SMC at the 1980 general election (83% majority). He was re-elected five times in 1984 (75%), 1988 (70%), 1991 (75%), 1997 (73%) and 2001 (88%), winning by an average majority of 77%.His 88% share of the vote in the 2001 parliamentary elections was the PAP’s best score in 31 years.

CPF for Tertiary Education

In 1988, Tan Cheng Bock, as GPC Chairman for Education, led a team of MPs to argue for the use of CPF for education, as an appreciable number of able students were not able to enter local universities due to limited places. Tan felt that education was a form of investment, and that all his GPC was asking for was an extra option for CPF members, to let them decide whether to put their investible savings in stocks and shares or in education. Chief argument against the idea was that the use of such retirement savings may leave the account holder with an insufficient amount at the end of his working life. The Minister for Labour at that time, Lee Yock Suan said that there were alternatives available such as soft loan schemes which were interest free. In answer to Tan's claim that Lee had not clearly stated his position on the issue despite the idea being first mentioned years ago, Lee insisted that his position had always been plain, that he "was against it, but you have pressed me to study it and I shall". The set of guidelines on the use of CPF for Education proposed by the GPC was eventually implemented, paving the way for the beginnings of a wave of Singaporean students studying at local tertiary institutions.

Free parking

Tan also convinced the Ministry of National Development (MND) to let Singaporeans park their cars for free in HDB estates on Sundays and public holidays, to promote family togetherness.

In early 2010, Tan volunteered himself to help fellow multi-millionaire residents in Sentosa Cove to meet with Sentosa Development Corporation (SDC) to seek waiver of the gantry entry charge (S$2 to S$7 depending on the entry time) for visitors to their residences to the Sentosa island. His efforts however did not bear immediate fruits. Later in October 2010, the SDC offered to cap the entry charge at a concession rate of $3

This is not the end of his contributions, there are many more. Think, Singaporeans, I know that it's too late right now as Tony Tan has already been elected as the president. Even using your butt to think, you would also know that it was the government who wanted Tony Tan to come out and contest. HE WAS THE FAVOUR OF THE GOVERNMENT. I bet that he will just listen to the government right now and not do anything. "Confidence for the future" ? I doubt so. You will just sit there and enjoy your salary every month. Only when necessary, you will then show your face. It's not like I hate you or something, I know that the PM is good, I know that you used to be a former deputy prime minister but since you're from the govt. and you're just listening to the PM, what's the point of having you ? We need someone like DR. Tan cheng bock to help us and to make sure that the govt. doesn't do the wrong thing.

I didn't stayed up till 2am for nothing. I WANTED A CHANGE. I like the government but not the way they handle some things at times. I know that the President's duty isn't that heavy than the PM ones but the President represent Singapore and the Singaporeans. I don't need Tony Tan to represent me. The way he present himself is the way how other people from other countries will look at us. I know that Tony Tan has contribute to Singapore too but seriously, I'm never his supporter and never gonna be.

Really, I DO

2011-08-15T03:05:00.000-07:00

Relationship is always like these.. sometimes, happy , sometimes sad. When a few years relationship come to an end, you'd feel sad of course. I'm not talking about myself. I'm just thinking that my wishful thinking could prevent myself from getting hurt. My wishful thinking could prevent us from falling apart. My wishful thinking might just be enough to keep me happy all day. I don't mind , really. Because, I'm glad that I've found you. The one whom I thought that it'd never last. :) I don't care if we're gonna be together or not , I just love you ; the way you are :) I love you so much, baby

Harry Potter & Deathly Hallows Part 2

2011-07-14T02:18:00.000-07:00

Hey people, I'm back after helping Rachel with the infocomm board today. Hmm, went to Shaw Lido yesterday to watch the final movie of Harry Potter sequel. I'm waiting for it since that day I won the tickets. :) Hehe, I'm quite honoured to be part of the premiere but 1 thing I din't like is about the handphone check-in. It's quite troublesome and you have to let the security guards to check your bag. Yeah, the shaw house is really big luh. Din't have time to go to Isetan! argh, such a waste! After finishing the movie, it's already 9 plus. I feel sad after the whole movie ended cos' it's like 10 years of seeing Potter, it's coming to an end now. Seriously, I don't quite like the part which some of the characters died. [Poor thing !! ] omg, don't they have a potion which can make them alive? Isn't it magic?

Lol, Voldemort died and it's obvious right. I forgotten some of the parts alr hahaha . I can barely remember what happened in the part 1 story. The romance between Hermoine and Ron is cute :D Neville's got a hair cut and he looks so freaking handsome now! in the past, I used to think that he's not really as good-looking as the other characters but in the last movie, I suddenly felt that he looked so different! woohoo! There's not really a lot of Draco's scenes in the last movie. Haix, I'd say that ending in this way is really such a waste! Maybe J.K, you could consider to write another book? I'm pretty sure that you've got lots of ideas in your head. It's just a matter whether you want or not. Nevertheless, GO WATCH THE MOVIE NOW IF YOU HAVE NOT! YOU WON'T REGRET IT! WATCH IT IN 3D COS THE EFFECTS IS REALLY COOL!!!!!

Most responsible student , me ?

2011-07-08T00:13:00.000-07:00

Hahaha, it will be a short post today since I've got other things to do. Hmm, what I've done for the past few weeks is quite simple luh. There were not a lot of homework [谢天谢地] don't really like homework.. Yesterday, went for the NE Mation workshop. It wasn't that tiring like the SGCC held in NYP. That one i tell u , can die from it ! At least tis one is only 4 hours [Nyp - 8 hrs] and tis one got friends so time flies quickly ~ A lot of hard work needs to be put in in that one minute of animation. Wonder why some ppl likes it so much uh? Yeah, we like cartoons but you can just use any software, u don't really need to do all these on your own. Grouped with Qi xuan and nazurah. The theme for tis year's Racial Harmony Day is : NS - From Father To Son. Nazurah came up with a [Animal Kingdom] Idea which was really funny but it's nt related to NS luh. YOU CAN'T POSSIBLY ASK MONKEYS TO GO NS RIGHT?!

Hahas, qi xuan did a draft too but she deleted in the end. Ms Jamie [one of the instructors in anImagine] came to assist us. She gave us some ideas and we changed our story plot. Nevertheless, many groups have the same idea as ours so what to do? Aiyo, I need inspiration!!! lol. Anw, we continued writing and changing until Mr. Zahlan told us to go home. I think he's the one who wants to go home first! Haven't 6pm but alr starting to chase us out. Haix, bo bian then have to go home do. Nvm luh, until 14 july so still can think of new ideas :)

School's the same for today. Went to sch then helped Xin Yi to design the poster. Skip ~ maths lesson was cooool. Mr. Chan said that if there's a 'Most Responsible Award', he would give it to me and Xin yi cos that time got remedial but we are unable to attend it so we msg Mr. Chan. Din't know that the others didn't msg him. Hehe, i sent him that msg becos' i didn't wan a scolding from him the next day and I feel guilty for not going cos' 50 % of the class not going oso. But that day i really got stomach ache so nid to go home. F&N was _______________ . Instead of Electromagnetic waves, I wrote Microwaves.. damn! my 4 marks gone liao! At first i know that got one magnetic one so I wrote Micromagnetic then found out weird weird one. Now, my answer is even more weird!!

The First Emperor and His Legacy

2011-07-03T00:18:00.000-07:00

Went to Asian Civilisation Museum to see the Terracotta Warriors. Went thr around 3:30 pm and parents bought the tickets. Students no need to pay but still need to write down our particulars and so on. Hmm, didn't see the other galleries first because we wanted to see the T.W first. Wow, still need to queue up. Actually didn't wait for a long time cos' is one group go in, another group go out. When we first entered, we were given a card which we can chop on it. Whoa, it's really coool! being able to see the terracotta warriors in life is really unbelievable. They are about 2000 years old!! my goodness, I've been studying about them but it's my first time seeing them and experiencing it for myself.

Took lots of photos . Used daddy's I-phone to play with the words but becos we didn't start from the beginning, only some words got the 3D effects nia. Hahaha, quite fun. :D after viewing the Terrocotta Warriors, we went to see other artefacts. Used chopsticks to pick up the round hard balls. Don't assume it's easy because you need to focus and use the right strength. Saw some asian stuffs and some of them were really old. Planned to buy some souvenirs back since it's the 1st time the T.W are in SG but those gifts are really expensive. I can only say that they are meant for tourists only, want to 砍菜头 also not like that mah. Who dare to buy like that?!

After touring around the museum, went to the opposite side, near Marina thr. Got NDP rehearsal so stayed there to watch. Wow, so many red colour ppl could be spotted from afar. Got canon and it's damn loud. Cannot tahan it ! I can only say that the view is really beautiful. Had dinner at Lau pat sat. A lot of food goodies but really had no idea what to eat. Still got live band performance! :DD By the time we went back , it's alr 9 plus. The shopping centres are closing already so quickly go home lor. Reached home at around 10. Watched a bit television shows then went to sleep cos I'm really sleepy after 1 whole day of walking. Anw, photos are uploaded in fb alr so u peeps can go and check it out!

LAOGONG'S BIRTHDAY!

2011-07-02T00:10:00.000-07:00

LOL ! ANY IDEA WHY MY FONT FOR TODAY IS SO BIG? HAHA, IT'S BECAUSE OF MY LAOGONG, DENISE GOH LI WEN !!! Hmm, it's her birthday today woohoo!! This laogong of mine hor , let me tell you our story :P

First knew her when I was in sec 1 then slowly followed her and ilynn go recess. Slowly, Janelle, Agnes and Yee cheong joined in. We had recess toegther and had lessons together. It was fun hanging out with her cos' you will never feel sad. :D She would use a lot of ways to make you laugh. For eg, during sec 2, when i sat with her, she keep pulling my hair and when she stretch, she would aim my direction de !~~ LOL! bully me lor ! then she would force me to eat eat and eat !!! Sometimes, she would complain to me that her _ _ _ _ _ _ _ , ehh u all dun 想歪歪 uh . I think only some of us know the answer hahah!

This laogong of mine is very cute :) The way she talks, acts and portrays herself is so super funny! :DD I can die of laughing whole day because of her. Ilynn, do you remember when she sing? So damn high right?! I love the times when 3 of us sing together. Though it wasn't professional singing, it was absolutely worth remembering for the rest of my life! To me, she isn't like any other friend. She's a important friend to me. [Wansi, don't jealous! You oso very important!] If it weren't for her and ilynn and many other peeps, I'd not be able to understand the meaning of true friendship.

Laogong, you know that when i keep quiet means i don't want to talk about it. You won't keep on asking and asking unlike some kpos. I like your 直率 cos' no matter who the other person is, you will say his/her good and bad things. Although we are in different class right now, I will still treat you like in the past. Because we're in different class now, I value our friendship even more !! I hope nxt time still can go out with you uh. Okay, that's all! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND MAY ALL UR WISHES COME TRUE !! 爱你！！

一日店长 & 嘴唇

2011-06-19T23:54:00.000-07:00

Went to Yew Tee yesterday for the flea market thingy. Set up a little booth or I'd say that we laid those things we wanted to sell on the mat. Lol, it isn't like a pasam malam cos thr were fewer ppl over thr. We sell watches and some of my uncle's things. My uncle hor , hw can charge ppl $50 for a battery charger in tis kind of place?! It's a flea market leh, not a supermarket! Th original price is definitely more that $50 but ppl who come to here dun care outside sell how ex, they just want to buy things tat are cheap. Our 1st customer bought a watch from us but the battery like sot sot de. She walked 1 round then come back tell us tat the watch stopped working so my aunt had to fix it again. Luckily, she didn't come back after that :D which means th watch is fine! Can tell that some customers were interested in our stuffs but went away after learning the price. Sigh ..

Went around to see other ppl's booth. Some of them were selling the hottest and irritating 'ANGRY BIRD!' hahaha, i dun really like that angry bird luh, dk why kids like it so much? It also doesn't look cute, so fat !!! LOL! I think after tat bird hear me saying it's bad words, it will become ANGRY again. Heck care luh. No sign of customers in the afternoon cos' most of them went out. A few came and left. My uncle very funny luh. He said : "See don't touch, touch don't see." abit like that, forgot what he said also. 姨 brought the kids down and bought lunch for us since there weren't much ppl. Mum and aunt bought some things. O.O Saw a guitar for sale : $80. Looks quite new but definitely it's not new! I took care of th booth since mum and uncle went around looking. Some of the maids bought toys for the kiddys. $1 only leh!! Cheap right?! Hehe. Glad that our Pikachus didn't lose to ANGRY BIRD. :)

Planned to close our booth and go back aunt's house liao but as we were packing, some of the aunties came to see. Aiyo, they were messsing our watches again but it was okay cos they were buying. Mum was handling one fussy resident while aunt was handling one china elderly. - no offence on the word China .. cos really got some residents are from china. Both of them took a long time to choose. So hard to earn their money!! Had a offer sale which attract some of the residents. :P after clinching this 2 ladies deal, we quickly packed up. Earned quite a bit since there wasn't any capital afterall since my uncle didn't want them anymore. I've got 200 more watches to sell . LMAO! anyone interested ? these watches are cheap and beautiful but no guarantee luh cos they have been kept for 1 year alr. *end*

Went to see doctor today for my lips. For those ppl who know me, they would certainly noticed my lips. Yeah, it's not only tearing or too dry, it's like a virus. Hmm, doctor say tat my skin is sensitive one so prescribed me some medicine which can prevent allergies. Wow, got a shock when I saw the bill. Tat time went to see doctor becos of the vomitting thingy, i dun tink it's that ex cos tat doc. gave me a jab too. This time, doctor gave me 3 types of pills [from big to small also have], 1 liquid cleanser and 1 small tube of cream. I trust this doctor luh cos since young, I've been to him for my cough and etc. and he cured me everytime so I hope he's right tis time. My case isn't that simple afterall.

Hmm, holiday is coming to an end yet I've still got 1 more homework yet to finish which is my Home econs research. Really too lazy to do it luh.. zzzz. I dk it's my own 疑心病 or nt, kinda find tat this holiday is a little too short cos 27 june sch reopen liao. In the past, i think is 29? Aiya December holiday is the best!! but tis yr i think my nov-dec will be cut away for O lvls next year. *cry* my goodness, 1 mre year to O lvls!! I'm kinda interested in Diploma in Audio and music technology in SP but it requires at least 10 points. Diao.. will strive hard just to get in to this course since SP is th only poly tat offers tis course. Also quite interesting in Psychology and Humanities courses. Oh ya, the terracotta warriors are in SG for exhibition!! Gonna bug daddy to bring me go~~~

我的哥哥

2011-06-16T00:11:00.000-07:00

Decided to post about my brother since I dreamt of him last night. It's been a long time since he and I chatted together. I still remembered how close we were when we were young. Now that, we are grown-ups, we seldom talk to each other alr. Not because of this reason too , but also because of some misunderstandings and incidents which is partly my fault too. In the past, when he was playing his PlayStation, I'd accidentally step into his wire then the whole screen just went blank-out. I did not apologised, I did not help him to re-connect the wires back for him, I just went back to my room. He was giving me that angry face. I knew it was my fault but it's not me when I've to apologise. When we grow older, I'd often think that he's trying to find faults in me. When i want to buy sth, he would say this one nt good luh. That's why I don't really like him sometimes [in the past]

But as I become more matured, I'd think of a lot of things he have done for me. I kinda missed the times when we were young. Our whole family would go out during Sundays and have breakfast together. Sometimes, we would play badminton together. My mother was always playing wif me cos I am not that good when I was young. Sometimes when my brother did not return after 1am, I could not fall asleep because I was worrying for him. I would tell God that as long as my brother is safe and sound, I'd be a good kid and I would not bear any grudges about him. And everytime, God answered my prayers. Not only God helped me, Bodhisattva helped me too. Now, when my father returned from work, 4 of us are united , I'd feel thankful and contented alr.

I relied on my family a lot. My brother, someone whom I always cared for in my heart, I just want to tell you that I was not a good sister all the time. My bad temper caused problems in the family, making all of your unhappy. When you appeared in my dreams last night, I was thankful because we were very close and you forgave me for what I've done. This early morning when i woke up, I find myself in tears. The dream which woke me up and the tears that came out was because you. Even now, when I'm typing, tears began dropping from my eyes again. Somemore, I'm listening to Cyndi Wang's [不哭] lol. What I want is very simple, just peace for the world and my family. To me, family ties are the most important. The reckless me have disappeared, I promise. I'll change for the better. For Our Family, For Those People Who Are Important To Me. Xin Le . You . Need . To . Change .

SGCC @ NYP + 10 june bowling

2011-06-16T00:09:00.000-07:00

Hey all, it seems like it's a long time since I have updated so came to write a few stuffs. School's reopening soon but I've still got homework to do. Anw, went to NYP for the 2nd time yesterday for the SGCC thingy. I like from kampong like that, see those poly pupils wearing home-clothes, feel like I'm in a different world. In case you're wondering what nonsense I'm saying, just forget abt it. My first time in NYP left me a deep impression. Previously, I've been to Republic Poly for netball competition but tat time didn't tour around much cos no mood haha. Somemore, that place is quite big too. The field damn big lor, run like siao. Oh yeah, the SGCC briefing on 1st June was okay luh but yesterday's workshop almost killed me. 9am to 5pm leh ! somemore, i bo friends lor. The lower sec girls were on their own [they did ask me to join them but i shy shy :D] then Zhi heng and Conan were together so i was on my own lor.

Faced tat big screen monitor for few hours. Had to do programming which totally kills me. I've no idea how to do it. You can call me a computer-idiot 电脑白痴 if you want. I know how to online, do movie videos and blaa blaa but when it comes to following instructions and programming, I can be one blurr sotong. Conan sat beside me so all the time when the student leaders weren't around, I had to seek his help. Dun really know him well but he still helped me :) Thanks !! He's very quiet like Zhi heng. Haix, mostly my end-project are done with the help of the student leaders over thr. One male student leader was really friendly, he taught me how to do things and I'm used to have him around when I ran into problems hahahah. However, he was too busy running here and thr so had to do it on my own.

Then, thr was this female student leader who helped me with the animation. Wow, she helped me to complete leh!! :P some student leaders are hang around luh, dun want trouble them. Lunch-ed at Mac's. Whoa, i like sua-gu like that [mountain tortoise] see here and thr. Finally, we finished the things that we needed to do. My goodness, it seems to be the longest time I've spent with the computer. My eyesight is getting worser, have to go check again. Hmm, actually today got the 2nd day workshop one but din't go cos tat time i alr told zhiheng tat i 16 june not free but still changed to 15&16 so din't go today lor. Can't blame me hor !! :@ tonight i got guitar, i nid to practice one leh. [In case you're wondering why I'm still here typing instead of practising, I'd say : "Must play enough 1st mah!" lol , wonder my group doing wad now.. sorry luh.. P/S : My cca isn't that relax afterall !!! Or should I say .. I'm only interested in stuffs relating to music.

Went to Orchid Country Club with peeps [aravind, pravitha and huisi] for bowling :] some of the others couldn't join us cos of their reasons. Nvm, i won't spoil the mood of the others who wished to go. Hehe , planned to meet at 12:30pm but I was late for a couple of minutes[ i'm always late for outings lol~ ] PRAVITHA WAS THE LATEST! not that latest but the one who caused us to wait for so super long ! should have ate with peeps first while waiting for us. She uh !! everytime tell her must be punctual but she like nvr listen one lor. -.- haix, used to it alr. Becos of her, the 3 of us had to eat very quickly cos th bus only comes at 1:13 pm then the nxt bus would be around 2 plus. Didn't wan to wait for so long ..

Was quite fun ! :D hehe, aravind did quite well in the 1st round but 2nd round dk wad happen. Huisi improved a lot!! Her 2nd game caught up with us, got us in a daze! ^.^ Pro! Took a couple of photos and videos [alr uploaded in fb] . Gave Pravitha her present, hope she likes it ! For the past 2 yrs, didn't give her any present. Since we got fate to be classmates for another 1 1/2 yrs, shall give her then. Ilynn, do u remember the pink colour bra we promised to get for her for her birthday? LMAO! after bowling, went around NP . Walked a few rounds since Aravind doesn't wan to go home yet. Went to TimeZone to play. He sponsored me a few games. Thanks buddy! He's that Mr.Nice everytime. Alr, tat's all for today ! cya~

Behind that optimistic smile of mine

2011-05-20T00:57:00.000-07:00

Hey people, haven't been here to update for a long time so since I have got the time now, I would update some things. Exams over and I have gotten back some of the results already. Hopefully, everything will be smoothly. Alright, nowadays, I do face some problems.. no idea whether the issue lies with me or the person, I just felt that it isn't right. If you know who you are, please kindly reflect on yourself. I thought we were good friends, for a couple of years already but neither did I realise that you've been hiding lots of secrets from me. It's alright for you not to tell me but it feels like I am the only one who is unaware of the truth and I thought that you were trustworthy. Definitely you are , but I'm not certain at this point of time since every thing's changing, every body's changing too. Right, enough of these stuffs. I've got some prayers that I wish to do.

God, I seriously pray that it is only a rumour and a prediction which will never come true. I love my life, I love my family, I love my friends and many more, I can't afford to lose the world. God, You are the only one that knows what is going to happen, and from the bottom of my heart, please... Please spare us the agony, spare us the tears and spare us the punishment. I know we have done things wrongly in the past but please, let us off. God, You have shown me miracles and I believed in You. You can be source of energy and that only ray of hope. Everybody makes mistakes but not You. You brought us to this world, You are benevolent and that's why You couldn't bear for us to suffer. There were disasters that took many lives but You, shown us that we must learn from those mistakes and be strong.

God, bless all of us. Let the innocent ones go and may all the sufferings end. No one is being hurt and no one owns a living. God, I love You and therefore, You gave me strength when I was facing difficulties. God, You are the strength of us and I pray that nothing will happen tomorrow. God, I know You are listening so please, allow us to repent on our mistakes. Since there was a person named 'Ng Xin Le' being born, please do not let her suffer. God, I may not be a Christian but I believed in You. There's only real and fake in this world. You appeared in my life, You shown me the other side of me. God, I trust my life in your hands but do not let me be alone. You gave me strength but no matter how strong I am, I can never be strong when I lost everything. You are the saviour for all of these, You are the only one that can save us from all of these. God, I will keep on praying and be thankful for what I have. I will not blame anyone but myself. I swear, God, I will work hard. Please give me the chance to do so. I love my life and therefore, please.

My only baby

2011-04-08T22:29:00.000-07:00

Baby , i promise to love you more each day. :D no idea why ... i love you only . :) - my quote of the day : I'll hold your hand forever because ... you're mine. No matter how the future will be like, I promise to be thr for you forever. Because I love you more than anything.

A mother's love

2011-04-06T00:58:00.000-07:00

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment. My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell... anything for the money we needed she was such an embarrassment. There was this one day during elementary school.
I remember that it was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed.
How could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school..."Your mom only has one eye?!" and they taunted me.

I wished that my mom would just disappear from this world so I said to my mom, "Mom, why don't you have the other eye?! You're only going to make me a laughingstock. Why don't you just die?" My mom did not respond. I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that I had said what I'd wanted to say all this time.

Maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished me, but I didn't think that I had hurt her feelings very badly.

That night...I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, and then turned away. Because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye. So I told myself that I would grow up and become successful, because I hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty.

Then I studied really hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied, and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence I had. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. Then I had kids, too. Now I'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom.

This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when someone unexpected came to see me "What?! Who's this?!" ...It was my mother...Still with her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye.

And I asked her, "Who are you? I don't know you!!!" as if I tried to make that real. I screamed at her "How dare you come to my house and scare my daughter! GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!" And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared. Thank good ness... she doesn't recognize me. I was quite relieved. I told myself that I wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life.

Then a wave of relief came upon me...one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. I lied to my wife saying that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went down to the old shack, that I used to call a house...just out of curiosity there, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground. But I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me.

She wrote:
My son...
I think my life has been long enough now. And... I won't visit Seoul anymore... but would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much. And I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to go to the school.... For you... I'm sorry that I only have one eye, and I was an embarrassment for you.

You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with only one eye... so I gave you mine...I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did. The couple times that you were angry with me. I thought to myself, 'it's because he loves me.' I miss the times when you were still young around me.

I miss you so much. I love you. You mean the world to me.
My world shattered!!!

Then I cried for the person who lived for me... My Mother

A mother's love could be so 伟大, but what about you? Ever since young, you're being adored and doted on. You needn't worry about anything, just concentrade on your studies. Now, you're a grown up already, you have your wings to soar. However, don't forget , who's the one who's been caring you since young? If it weren't for her, would you have been so fit and healthy? Don't ever forget , your wings was given by her. Now that she's old and can no longer fly, it's your turn to repay her back with your wings. It was simply a graduation party yet ... disappointed . I would say.

Mediacorp day

2011-03-14T02:12:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps, finally have time to post after so long. It's March holiday alr! Tmr and thu nid go back school. Went to Novena today wif Agnes Lim. Nothing much there so went to causeway. After walking for 1 hr, went back to Np cos it was so bored. 2 of us only , what u expect? hahaha. Saw a couple of friends and went back home.

8 march : went to mediacorp for the 1st time. Was really looking forward to seeing how it looks like. Haha, lucky got laogong pei wo for the whole journey :) That lei lao shi kip changing Jasmine's and mine's seat so we were a little pissed. Rong Ming told us to follow his instructions which is to clap, laugh, scream and serious. LOL! now i finally understand how the whole system works. There were lots of commerical breaks and everytime someone speaks the wrong sentence or there's a computer error, we have to re-take again. Quite troublesome but was fun :D

Yishun Sec really fought hard and we even got No. 1 for one 单元. Whoa . Chen Chang looked very nervous but she was calmed to answer those answers. During the break time , was really hungry already cos we record until quite late. So went out and ate my bread. Though we record until quite late , was really enjoyable. Yishun Sec finished as 2nd placing and it was enough cos we know that they have tried their best alr :P

2011-03-03T03:56:00.000-08:00

Hey all, back with a new post since i'm quite free :) hmm, today went to Suntec City Hall for the career fair 2011. On the way to there, was chatting with Agnes Lim cos Ilynn Chew doesn't want to talk to me :( First time going to a learning journey with my class . I missed the 2E8 times cos Mr. Yeung would always entertain us throughout the whole trip. He sings, he dance and so on .. Haix, i think he's a good form teacher ! I miss having him as my form teacher, i prefer to my form teacher nw.... When we reached there, it's rather quite crowded alr. Teachers left us and we went around. LOL , denise they all took the brochures while ilynn and i went around. I couldn't see anything about my career which is music . TSK!

Planned to buy the candy floss one but after overhearing that it's $4, me and ilynn zao liao :P SO EX!!! GOLD CANDY FLOSS UH?! MIGHT AS WELL GO ROB THE BANK ~ After walking 1 hr, sian liao so went shopping with peeps. Ate at mac's , most of them bought ice-cream while I bought my apple pie. My laogong like from rural places lor, nvr eat b4 apple pie hahaha. Then yee cheong bought her dk what drink. Everyone of us had a taste on it . :D hehe, so yee cheong ate 7 ppl's saliva. LMAO. Agnes the best lor, no nid taste our saliva. It also proves our friendship isn't it? So fun at the mac cos denise ate a little bit of my apple pie + her ice cream + yee cheong's drink and yeecheong's food which idk hw to describe it.

Then mr ang told me to go and report to him so i quickly ran back to th building [I almost lost my way~] . Lucky when i returned, denise they all havent left. Janelle, Yee Cheong, Hui Si and Agnes left first cos they taking janelle's dad's car while we continued walking around for a while. Went to ToyRUS . I used to go there once when it was located at Northpoint lots of years back. Now old liao, whr got come to tis kind of places ? We were playing with that hamster which could record our voice. Ai En was scolding vulgarities hahahahah . ^.^ So freaking funny. Went a few rounds and then went to take MRT with the help of Mr. Look . Whoa , he lives so far yet still cme yishun secondary teach ...

家人的定义

2011-03-01T00:36:00.000-08:00

什么叫家人？我只知道：我一心一意的想对你好，我从来都没想过要伤害你。反而，我一直都站在你这边。虽然，有时我真的很想把心里的话表达出来但又怕你不能接受。你说我们不了解你，难道你就了解我们吗？阿京，一直支持你的我，突然觉得你变了。我不知道发生了什么事。。以前的张芸京呢？我从来都不责备你因为我觉得你说的话都有道理。这次也一样，我觉得你没错。错的都是在那几位说你和蓝有时的京迷。不知不觉，我发觉自己累了。我想我们需要时间吧。。。当你觉得你能面对这一切时，我也会回来的。

Put youself in her shoes ; but can someone understand how we feel too? You've always been there for us, you did everything you could ... Those nasty comments seems to bother you a lot, i have no idea why. The only thing that I know is that you're losing a lot of fans alr. But definitely not me. ~~Yet.~~ Edited : I promise it will be FOREVER.

The looks and the talent

2011-02-26T00:03:00.000-08:00

I'm falling in love with Sam Tsui's voice ... how?! I can't believe he can sing really that well because I've nvr heard anyone singing that great before. Anw, my laogong wanted me to update so i decided to grant her wish. :) hmm, these few weeks got tests so very stressed out luh. Especially when it comes to bio .. i can faint man ! i love bio but i dun like Mr. Ang to teach hahaha cos i simply dun feel like paying attention when he's teaching when the class is so freaking noisy!!! A change of teacher pls! LOL , nxt wk really different teacher le. Hope i can pass tues's bio test bah.

I'm starting to love chemistry hehehe. Used to dislike chem a lot cos i think it's hard and when Mr. Ang keeps teaching us sec 3 stuffs while we're still sec 2 nias. Now, i also forget all le. I can say that Ms. Tay teaches quite well. My first impression of her is that she's quite fierce but she really teaches us until it's very clear. Wow , another Miss Asma? Hahaha. I just miss primary school life, simple yet fun :D Ohh, during march holidays still nid to go back do wad IC luh. I bet holidays still nid to come back sch de. I cant wait for 8 March!! Can go mediacorp, maybe can see rui en lol!

Valentine's Day WOOHOO!

2011-02-13T00:03:00.000-08:00

It'll be a lonesome Valentine's if you don't have a lover. :) I wonder what my chou laogong will do tmr, maybe nothing cos she's not romantic! :DD Anw, planned to update cos i'm rather sian nowadays. Had my 1st cca on friday after missing for 1 year alr. Can u expect a person who doesn't have a cca for 1 year?! It's kinda cool but u will have to endure the days when people ask u what's ur cca and so on. And u will have to be like a coward to escape those discipline teachers. I miss CNY !!! i wished i could go back to my holidays. :x Am trying very hard to stay focus in this class, keep changing my places nia...

I missed having recess with my peeps when they will help u to take spoons and forks and help u return those plates. They give me a sense of belonging , they belonged to my world. 2 years of friendship is always hard to forget... So sorry tat I can't really accept my 3E8 friends as much as i want. Give me some time cos I know that at the moment, these peeps will always remain in my mind. It's hard to imagine life without them. P.E without them is always so boring ... i don't even nid to bother abt group-work or having partners in the past but nw, i have to.

My dearest peeps, you all won't know how much I have to endure in this class. Without friends, it's always so sad. :( Why do I have to be with those whom I disliked in the past? It's life, i would soon cover my ears, cover my eyes and there you all ; infront of me. I keep holding on and will it ever end up like the way I want? I thought things would end up in the way I want.

Hiatus with misses

2011-01-29T00:03:00.000-08:00

The girl used to say :

When I used to have a group of best friends with me - now they're no longer here.
When I used to have a group of best friends to share my woes and happiness - now they're no longer here.
When I used to have a group of best friends ... - all have disapppeared.

In case you all asked me why I ain't updating my blog nowadays. Firstly, I simply have no time to update. School's ending late and when I reached home , it's already 3.30 pm. Haix, my bag is really heavy sia... though sec 3 life is quite relaxing at the start but my bag is quite heavy ! :@ wth ! can't they tell us what to bring each day and not to bring alr and teacher dun wan to use it. What a waste of my time nia. Anw, one classmate asked me if I'm really that quiet.. I don't talk much in my new class now. My reply was definitely a no. Dun believe? Ask Denise/Agnes or Ilynn.

Hahaha , only Denise cannot tahan me luh. I keep desiao-ing her during chinese lesson. Who else can I disturb except for this cuttie laogong of mine who keeps me laughing each day and allowing me to chiong ~ if weren't for my dearest peeps, I think I won't look forward to each day. I'm a faithful person to my peeps okay! I won't pangseh them unless sth happens or what. (: They've been my pillar of strength. They built me up and tore me up when they left. Being in a new class now, I no longer feel the joy of going to school.

And some people would say that it's all in the past already. Go and make some new friends and you'd forget about them. But my answer is also a no. Don't expect me to forget about 2 years of friendship and hang out wif my new friends. I will make new friends of course but when it comes to friendship, my peeps have the priority. :D LOL! i'm being so biased right? Hohoho ! that's me :P Got back my chem paper , was praying since the paper ended cos I think I made several careless mistakes. But I got a B3! :) Yay ~

Gotta find a cca nxt week alr. Maybe go join AVA and pei Hui Si. No idea why th govt. wants us to find a cca . -.- And this school is lousy ... the cca's are not attracting at all. Can't they have handball/floorball/tennis/squash or so on? Nvm, i dun wanna talk about these le. Nxt week still got biology test. My god ... Didn't expect biology to be so freaking complicating. You have to remember what's inside the nucleus and what's even inside inside the cells. I wan study human body only luh! Hehe, that's all for today. Bye bye ~

In my own world

2011-01-10T00:47:00.000-08:00

Hello ! Hmm, today is quite cold sia . My hands are damn cold now, no idea what's wrong wif me oso. Had F&N lesson today and the teacher is really young. Sat with Agnes & Atika and tat mama of mine keeps staring at me cos we're talking about overweight and underweight. Bet she's gonna go on diet for this wed's height and weight test. Hope I still belong to the healthy range uh ! Went back to class for maths lesson cos Mrs Simmi. not free then our teacher have to take over. No aircon ! Had recess with peeps , no appetite again -.- ever since school reopen, i haven't had a proper meal at school ! argh , it's always like that. History lesson was cool . Got lukris behind me , can disturb him :D

Then got chemistry lesson which I'm terrified. How am I suppose to get at least a B3 at the end of tis year ?! oh man .. chemistry is one of my weakest subjects. Hate it luh ! why must they let us learn so much at this age?! SKIPPED-THE-REST . P.E lesson was really tiring + sian lor. Ask us to run run run and dodge dodge dodge. Haix, i miss 2e8 times .. i wan Mr. Koh! at least he allowed us to play floor ball. :P After school, waited for agnes . Damn it la . Alr reserved my English kingsway book then tat auntie go sell to other ppl. Like wth ?! RESERVE MEANS PRIORITY OKAY! aiya, lousy one la. Today 'O' lvls results will be announced. O.O

15th years old !

2011-01-09T00:45:00.000-08:00

Hey all , so sorry that I didn't post yesterday cos Agnes Lim is at my house so she will kill me if i write anything that speaks bad of her. Haha, this year birthday is very special cos many people wished me and gave me presents which makes me really touched. Thanks uh ! *hugs* Hmm , Niklas was the one who gave me present first. Was quite shocked cos i dun expect him to give me at all cos he was like so nasty to me *laughs* That present was bought by Aravind and him . Oh man , these 2 guys are really goood . :D gave me a keychain which has my name on it, i'll alr used it. :] Nxt was laogong . I was doing my own things then she came to my class room and gave me. ARGH! Make me wanna cry nia . T.T

Went for recess with peeps. I thought the rest forgot it's my birthday th nxt day so didn't say much. Lesson carried on lor , Mr. Lim created a very lame game ? aiyo, make me look like a fool only. Nvm, after sch went to find mama. Hui ru followed us cos she's heading home too. Went to Np and rent a DVD in case agnes finds it boring staying my house. O.O watched 童眼 wif her. Not really scary cos we're watching in the afternoon when there are sun ! :P failed to scare her after trying so many times. Then she gave me the present which she, Ilynn, Hui Si, Janelle bought for me. WOW, IT'S MY FAVOURITE GUITAR~ Ilynn's got great taste!

Haix , i still thought they forgot sia. What a big surprise they had for me!! I still remember tat day when after schoo, agnes told me to go home cos they are going somewhere else. I tot they pangseh me ... in fact , they went to buy my birthday present. Very cute huh? I love the plushie guitar toy a lot ! Denise's swan letter was touching leh , she really makes some effort doing it and this was the 1st time she gave someone a birthday present? weee ~ i'm so honoured to be her wife. ^.^ LOL. Then Agnes and I were playing around lor. Agnes Lim , see u so good .. my mum treat u so well ~~~ :B

P.S : I LOVE MY PEEPS !

2011-01-07T01:14:00.000-08:00

Day 1 - your best friend. - Agnes
Day 2 - your crush. - None-of-your-business
Day 3 - your parents. - So kpo ?
Day 4 - your sibling. - blehhh
Day 5 - your dreams. - musician !
Day 6 - a stranger. - ???
Day 7 - your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush. - UH !
Day 8 - your favorite internet friend. - AGNES LIM !
Day 9 - someone you wish you could meet. - Jing
Day 10 - someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to. - Janelle
Day 11 - a deceased person you wish you could talk to. - My uncle ?
Day 12 - the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain. - J.C
Day 13 - someone you wish could forgive you. - J.
Day 14 - someone you’ve drifted away from. - someone
Day 15 - the person you miss the most. - ?
Day 16 - someone that’s not in your state/country. - Hanny
Day 17 - someone from your childhood. - ?
Day 18 - the person that you wish you could be. - AGNES LIM *PUI*
Day 19 - someone that pesters your mind—good or bad. - AGNES LIM - BAD !!!
Day 20 - the one that broke your heart the hardest. ?
Day 21 - someone you judged by their first impression. - C
Day 22 - someone you want to give a second chance to. - ?
Day 23 - the last person you kissed. - ?
Day 24 - the person that gave you your favorite memory. - MY BESTIES
Day 25 - the person you know that is going through the worst of times. - MY BESTIES
Day 26 - the last person you made a pinky promise to. - no pinky
Day 27 - the friendliest person you knew for only one day. - ERMMM?
Day 28 - someone that changed your life. - Ms asma
Day 29 - the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to. - someone
Day 30 - your reflection in the mirror. - OMG !

I LOVE AGNES!!!

2011-01-07T00:58:00.001-08:00

I LOVE AGNES LIM TO THE MAX ONLY !!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO~ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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I'm scared someday all will be gone

2011-01-06T00:02:00.000-08:00

Hey all , back from school. Tmr's Friday alr! Yay ~ i nid my weekends lots! I can be totally quiet during class time and makes me wanna sleep only. Didn't even have proper lesson today.. shouldn't have brought all those heavy textbooks and workbooks. Aiyo, nxt time say 1st luh or else it'll be damn heavy! :@ Saw my chemistry teacher and I knew I'd be in dead meat alr. Especially when my chemistry is my worst subject. I scared kanna tio her scolding.

After recess was mother tongue. 1st time having chinese lesson so there was some sort of confusion. Went to 3/7 first cos our class ppl say just go over. Sat with Joy but mama was agitated after seeing me and wanted me to sit with her. Haix, I didn't wan to break my promise but I wanna sit wif her so much T.T nvm , in th end, went to 3/5 without sitting wif anyone of them. 3/5 is considered th band 1 chinese class so pressure is coming to me. At least got denise they all pei wo.

Went back to class and found out that our teahers have gone for the NYP thingy so free period lor. One relief teacher, Miss Tan, came to our class and at first, she was really good but after we make too much noise, she shouted at us. Like omg ... so fierce! It's like tat time Ms Seng scolded us. Ms Asma's scolding was even fiercer! But that was something i missed so much. How I wish I could go back to 2010. I realised I simply couldn't live without my besties ; Phildax.

P.S : Better don't come disturb me, and you can forget about becoming their best friends.

两个月后的微笑

2011-01-05T00:11:00.000-08:00

Hehe, now playing wif agnes'mama. Hadn't been talking to her on msn ever since she left for HK one month ago. Haha, since today is a good day, i shall spill something about her. She's in love now with someone :D hair didn't get caught today and finally a teacher remembers my name after just 1 day. Pro sia , at least she did not mispronounce my name. :( very bored luh , appoint monitors all sorts. Luckily, i never tio one. I preferred cleaning the classroom then helping here and there. Cos for the past years, i'm always the one doing. Don't want invite trouble for myself le. Looking forward to recess ~

Had recess with my dearest friends. :) Bought Agnes's favourite springroll or poppiah [by denise] . Mama didn't eat cos she wan lose weight!! Lol! Isn't she slim enough? *vomits* Joking luh! later she ask me write 1000 words again. Gonna have lesson tmr liao so can't go home that early le. These 2 days release at 1pm but assembly talks always delay until 1 + then release luh. Hmm, at least assembly talks is better than staying in class. At least go hall got ilynn they all and 3/7 friends to chat with. O.O guitar lesson is resuming tmr. *CRYS*

P/S : AGNES LIM , I WAN CRY NOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U DUN EVEN NOE MY BIRTHDAY!

过了两个月后，今天终于再次看到你的微笑。而且你只对我微笑耶！哈哈哈，开心开心

2011 : Good Year ? Or the other ?

2011-01-04T00:26:00.000-08:00

Hey all , new year already huh? Didn't managed to post a lot during the holidays but will update as long as I've the time. :) 1st back at school after resting for 2 months , i cried hard last night hahah! :D i'm a silly and weak girl.. idw school. [imagining me kicking around and behaving like a kid who doesn't wan to go to school] I was kinda curious who my form teacher will be. In th end, Mrs Simmi. Though she's our co-form teacher, i can feel that she's rather strict. Strict teachers are good ? I'll only improve if Miss Asma is around. It's been 2-3 yrs since i left nlps, seems like yesterday only.

I'm still a immature-kid. Met Ilynn and Vanessa this morning. Actually, we were waiting for Denise de but dk whr she go, maybe late? Pravitha still haven't come uh! lucky tat time got atika and agnes so won't be that boring. My ex-monitress is still a happy-go-lucky girl. :] Mrs. Simmi say my fringe long then ask me to clip up. Like ?! in my whole life, unless i tie my hair, i dun clip up my fringe. It will look so freaking weird okay! totally ruin my image -.-'' for a day only, i bear-ed with it. Come on! since when u ppl see me wif clips here and there! suan le.. suay bah.

Thanks to Agnes'mama and Denise'laogong who lent me their hair clips. Totally 100 % THANKFUL TO BOTH OF YOU! thank you so much. Later will dedicate something to both of u kays?! saw my timetable, NO MUSIC OR DRAMA?! like wth ! i nid sth that includes my future to inspire me to work. Knew some friends and started to talk wif them. Other than that, i'd say our class is rather noisy haha. Compared to 2E8'10, this class jokes ain't funny lol! Hey, 2e8 got zhikai, zhijun, rosydi they all jokers leh. Maybe I'm still not used to this new class where my besties are separated.

Had recess with my one and only best friends group in this school. Nothing can be more happier than being with them. I love them cos they're amazing in all ways. Denise - Has a lot of humour. Ilynn : Never fails to make us laugh. Huisi : Quiet but sensible ; allowing us to think even carefully. Yee cheong : blur blur girl whom has the same interests as me. Agnes : Someone whom i love bickering. Knows when to talk at the right time. Lelia : Quiet too but good with words. Pravitha no nid say hehe . As for Atika , though she seldom hang out wif us but she always cheer us up with her smile. Ermm, for aravind, he's the helpful type.

My dearest mama AGNES LIM [look here!] , u wanted 1000 words but even 1000 words isn't enough and i dun wan to say so much mushy words here. If u wan, i can write 1000 words for u for ur birthday only! :P joking luh, i see when i got time then say bah ! okokok ? Anw, u will always be the mama i love the most. Just call me anytime when u nid me [not prank call uh!] though u know i would be lost for words when i'm on the phone. ^.^ I wan my big big 空心 guitar larhh!! You'll always be my mama and i'll always love you okay.

My loving laogong , take care of urself uh! Still sick leh , better listen to what doctor says. If not feeling well, ask daughter to takecare u hor. Different class but we're still husband and wife lehs . I like to play wif u the most cos u will gimme lots of styles de. If ur backside still pain, stand up and shake it ! :B or u can complain to ilynn or the rest. Take very good care of urself !!!! wooooooo aiiiiiiiiiiii niiiiiiiiiiii WANSI DUN JEALOUS!! hahahah, i love every single one of u !

These friends won't change.

2010-12-16T13:20:00.000-08:00

Hey all , back to posting again. For the past few weeks, been dreaming of what's my life when sch reopens. All my besties are in the same class, I HATE IT. Why can't we be in the same class for another 2 more years? Seriously, I love the class lots although there are ppl we don't like lol . But at least we have been together for 2 years, no longer that stranger anymore... :( I don't even get to see them for so long. Only when my besties are with me, I can taste the feeling of being cherished. Agnes, Denise, Ilynn, Janelle, Hui Si, Janelle, Lelia, Yee Cheong : To me, you all are like a big family to me. Never thought that we could be that close, nvr thought before that I could have such wonderful friends. I love you all ; forever.

Yesterday was a memorable outing. :) Although there's only 4 of us, I was elated. Seeing all my friends once again, is such a great feeling! We even bet money. Luckily , Agnes and I managed to win the 2 singles match so that we dun have to pay haha. But Janelle, we forgot to take our 20 cents from them!!! hahaha, it's so fun lor. I like the feeling of being challenged. It makes me even want to battle and win. I can't believe Agnes won Yee Cheong too. :D How can it be possible?! I was worrying for Agnes cos she don't look like she could stretch here and there to smack but she still won because yee cheong keep hitting out so Agnes, is Yee cheong made too much mistakes, nt u pro :p

Oh yeah, few days ago went to Bugis to buy my bag cos I tot tat there might have the bags I want and it may be much cheaper. Went to Waterloo to pray first, not used to there cos seldom go there but still prayed that everything will goes well for me & my family. Went to bugis street after that, it was rather crowded for a weekday. The place is too big and makes me giddy cos we're like walking in a maze. Saw several bags but weren't big enough to put my files since nxt yr is gonna be a long year ~ haix, i wanna transfer to a music school instead. I might opt for NAFA instead of poly schools but it's so freaking far lor! aiya, wait till sec 4 then say bah!

Sometimes you just need the luck

2010-12-06T02:07:00.000-08:00

Hey people , been sick of my blog alr? Haha same for me too, just come here everyday to check on my tagboard. Gonna blog about Saturday's trip. Went to Sentosa last sat which was considered a tired one? Aunt vomited and makes me a little nauseated too but i still remained calm. Finally reached there after so freaking long. They went to the Underwater World while my parents and I went to tour around Sentosa. Didn't wan to go to UW cos it's kinda of giddy when tat escalator keeps on turning and it's so crowded! :@ the food over there damn ex lor. $5.50 for a plate of chicken rice which tastes so normal?! tsk , might as well go rob th bank! aiyo, dinner even chum! $5.80 for a bowl of prawn mee. wth?! forget abt it, Dad said tat 1 year come a few times only so nvm lor.

There's nothing much about Sentosa. Bought the famous popcorn which has the taste of coffee? eeyyers! I was a bit sick at tat time so i only ate one :D my house nw still have leh . Small packet , eat few days haven't finish hehe. Went to Candylicious. I SIMPLY LOVE THERE . Finally i found a place which could attract me so much! candy + sweets + lollipops~ love it ttm manx, dun feel like leaving at all. I wonder if they have vacancy for me ? lol, no pay oso nvm , just let me eat those candies can le :P bet after working 1 mth, my teeth will all drop! muahaha~ saw one guitar candy but costs $9! exxxx leh ! bought a packet of sweets $4/100g. I think i will only go there nxt time to buy sweets! :]

# 12.04

Congrats to Jing ~ she finally had her own concert & I'm really happy for her though i can't join the rest to her concert. Well done , 小京刚 ! You're simply awesome, faster come SG to have ur concert! looking forward o.o

F-O-R-E-V-E-R

2010-11-30T19:30:00.000-08:00

I've decided to update this dead-blog of mine. Tmr's decemeber alr , 1 more month and school's starting. :( Though holidays may be a little boring, I still want holidays to extend uh! But to be honest, I've done nothing much during my holidays. Instead, I wasted a lot of money on entertainment. T.T I'm currently trying to save money... these few days becos of money, got a little bit sot liao. Not sure if I'm continuing to become their member or not, I scared later Jing nvr comes then money fly liao ~ I'd love to be part of this big family so I still have time to think about it. Trying to bake muffins nowadays but Mum haven't bought the ingredients! #$%&! suan le. Today just post until here .

Missing In Action

2010-11-21T13:39:00.000-08:00

Guess what I am listening to now? It's easy to guess de, everyday oso do the same thing one. Nvm, I've neglected this blog for almost 2 weeks? sorry luh, holidays nothing to blog about cos nothing to do at home other than playing my guitar. :] I'm loving this colour lots ! A little pink and a little red so it's kinda of mixture lol. Gonna watch Harry Potter soon, the funshion one nt full version ... rather watch at the cinema. Nxt wed got class outing! hope more than half of th class can come. Everytime like that one lor :( Gotta blog again soon! bye ~ :D

It's like being stabbed deeply

2010-11-08T03:22:00.000-08:00

Finally everything's settled. :) today's bowling was considered quite fun. Shared 2 games with Hui Si cos last wk , i almost gutter all of them and with a disappointing score of 90 + nia. Huisi + Xinle = Hui le ~ what a nice name :D took nicole's chinese name hehe. 1st game, huisi played quite well , i scared later become a burden of her. Whee ! Got a strike ! :D yay ~ happy happy happy. The rest did pretty good too. Denise got 118 while i got 117 [together wif huisi] pathetic la me. Suay too! lose her by 1 more point :( shannon's hp got missing, had a hard time finding too. Damn tat person luh, his parents nvr teach him that we must be honest uh? Anw, ty aravind and niklas for paying our taxi's fee! :p

Short & Fragile

2010-11-06T11:26:00.000-07:00

This is going to be a text which is full of chinese words. If you think that you don't understand, you may skip this post.

生命很微弱...... 每个人只能活一次，只有一条命。对我来说，能生存事件幸福的事。有些人正在为生命奋斗，有些却因为一点小事，想要结束生命。对于这俩种情况，我曾经也是这样。我一直认为一切都不是真的，怎么可能会这样？！我有时很累，真的好累。。。不想再继续了但我却没有勇气宣告失败。这一个礼拜，我经历了人们说为的生离死别。虽然对他们不怎么了解却还是会感到难过。毕竟，我们也曾因为某种因素，认识的。在我们心里，有些事情就算成了事实，也不愿去相信。说来话长～

我自己也有崇拜的人，我也因为她，搞得自己迷迷糊糊。应该没有人比我追偶像还疯狂吧！:D 她的快乐变成了我的快乐。她的难过也变成了我的难过。因为她在我心里是非一般的特别。我从不怎么喜欢到现在的超喜欢真的改变满多的。她的粉丝渐渐也成了我的朋友。现在，朋友出事了，我只能默默为她祈祷。希望她在另一个远方保佑着我们也保佑着我们一直都很保护的人。对你不怎么认识，但我们也只希望自己的偶像能越来越红！你还这么年轻，应该有一段很长的路要走。在天上的你，一定要快乐！

京，我有一千句，一万句的话想对你说。不知道我写给你的安慰话你有没有看到。。。多希望能够亲口对你说，‘别难过，你有我们！’若我能为你做些什么，请尽管说。对你许下的承诺，我没返回过。因为你的热情，你的礼貌，你的一切，都让我觉得你是一个很棒的歌手！你从来都不掩饰，一点都不假。个性也很随和，所以才招来这么多粉丝！:) 总有一天，你也会像蔡依林，萧亚轩，张惠妹等等，一样红的。(虽然你现在也很红) 但我希望你能站在国际舞台！我会一直支持你的～加油哦！

Jing ~

2010-10-31T00:03:00.000-07:00

Topic for the day is ..... *drum rolls* AH JING ! weee ~ went for her autograph session yesterday. Reached there around 3pm, found quite emptiness then went up to lvl 4. OMG! Her fans all gathering over there sia.. no wonder lvl 3 no ppl, all upstairs uh! my t-shirt haven't buy yet so can't join the priority queue. Didn't join the rest of the members since I don't really know them and I'm still new to the fanclub. Waited for my parents to finish their lunch and headed to the Garden Plaza. WOW! a lot of ppl liao. Joined the queue session and waited patiently for her appearance. When she entered, ppl scream their lungs out. I of cse dun dare luh, somemore i alone leh. [My parents waiting behind]

Took a few videos then my idiotic camera no battery alr. :@ damn u luh, such a critical moment yet u still say no battery?! no choice, have to use my phone. My phone can't really zoom as well as the camera. Haix, make me damn fed-up only. 1 lucky fan managed to take a phone with her. *jealous* chou ji dan hahahah. 1st time going to a autograph session, 1st time meeting Jing in real life, 1st time so near her, 1st time looked straight in her eyes, 1st time shook her hand, 1st time talking to her. Waaasehhh, i thought i was dreaming. :P I can only see her in tv wad but 1st time 零距离. Waited for so long liao! she looked great okay! Much better than in tv hehehe.

Here's our short conversation.

She : 你好。
Me : 你好。。*In a nervous tone..*
She : Took the lyrics book and signed on it.
Me : Staring at her still..
She : 谢谢你 or rather 谢谢 *shook my left hand with a smile which makes me feels like I'm dreaming.*
Me : Went away

Went to find my parents. Still in my lala land, i stared at my left hand and smiled like a idiotic person. Oh my ... For the first time, I felt that my left hand was useful . LOL! I didn't wan to wash my hand after that but my parents insisted me since she alr shook hands with so many fans alr. ''Might be germs'' *staring at them alr* Should have asked my parents to take pic when I go up th stage! so wasted -.-'' Jing's alr heading back to taiwan [should be now] anw, all the best alrights? May ur dec. concert at hong kong be a new starting for u! ^.^ remember to come SG more often! 我们是很热情的粉丝哦! 爱你 ~

Holding on to something which you've have no confidence

2010-10-28T00:04:00.000-07:00

Hey, today is the last day of school alr. :( planned to hug every single one. LOL! kidding nia :] Today still got ppl nvr come :p anw, the school closure concert was touching. So fast 1 year passed alr ~ I knew that no way I will end up in th same class as your alr. I've got nothing to post anw. Just a thanks :D here's a short description of mostly of our classmates.

Agnes - Adorable
Atika - Awesome
Chermine - Courageous
Denise - Diligent
Ilynn - Irresistible
Janelle - Joyous
Joey - jolly
Vanessa - vivacious
Hui si - Helpful
Pravitha - placid
Rose - responsible
Shannon - sincere
gina - good
ke hui - kind-hearted
cher ying - cheerful
Lelia - loving
veronica - vigorous
Aravind - amused
adrian - ambitious
wei hao - warm
lukris - likable
azfar - adaptable
wirya - wise
gordon - glorious
zi han - zealous
rosydi - receptive
kar heng - knowledgeable
zhi jun, zhi kai - zany
dion - decisive
razi - resolute
niklas- nice
andy - agreeable

Nothing sinful

2010-10-27T23:52:00.000-07:00

Just one more day and this is the end of our secondary 2 life. Never expected to be so fast. It seems like this year is really fast, everybody is rushing. I really missed those times when we could actually work as a class. Hope everyone will come tmr so that I can see all of you 1 last time cos i know that nxt year, we'll nt be in th same class. I wish all of you all the best ; good luck for everything :) 1e8/2e8 - mark this as a starting of my life.

Haix, wonder what we'll gonna do tmr. This few days quite boring, did surveys and slack. Today, watched a crime movie. It was considered as a good movie too. :D did a survey and went back to class. Saw this year magazine, Mr. James hopes that we can give him some suggestions regarding nxt year's magazine. Went to Cp after sch. Planned to go and buy my guitar book but it was closed so headed home after that.

Isn't up to you anymore

2010-10-26T23:47:00.000-07:00

When the world doesn't stop because of you,
when you thought that you could stop time,
when you felt that it's meaningless to live anymore,
when you want to leave this world with no regrets,
Think of the positively side - True Heart Feelings

Escaping from reality doesn't help at all. It only makes you to think more optimistically. I chose to hide my feelings with a smile. And, that's the hidden smile.

Hey, don't ask me why I chose to write this whole paragraph of craps [above] cos I think that sometimes, we chose to escape and thinks that the problem will be solved. Obviously, it doesn't. Yeah, a terrible feeling of being left out. When I used to have so many friends in this class, the thought of leaving them would just easily tear me apart. Nothing in this world can stays forever ; Like Nothing Is Impossible. Only when you chose to face the truth, you'll see another path carved for you. A new beginning ; a glow of your future. Lost something? Who knows? You might gain something back too?

Memories will never be erased. Like I've used to have a close friend but we're separated because of misunderstandings. I'd definitely feel guilty towards you or perhaps for the rest of my life. I don't need you to forgive me or whatsoever, I just hope everything will be smoothly for you. 2 years in this school is enough to surprise me already. Never thought that I'd go to this school because of my friends. Having no companion in this school, I slowly understand the real meaning of friends. My group of friends which comes mainly from my class really impressed me a lot. I love them a lot.

Separating is just a matter of time and also whether you want to accept or not. Being in the best class among all the sec twos express, I'm really happy. :) No idea how I entered this class too. I should be surprised at my PSLE results. See the difference between both of my results and you'd see another side of me. I used to mug so hard for my Primary School and it was because of my Primary 6 form teacher whom changed me totally. I'm always grateful for this teacher and I thank God for letting me to meet this wonderful teacher. Also, my friends were also the ones whom motivate me.

The final game with all of you have been really great. While playing, I was saying to myself that it would be the last time that I would play with these bunch of good friends and immediately, I motivated myself to make this game a perfect ending. I guess those laughter's will disappear slowly. From my memory, I got friends that we used to be so close yet now, we became even strangers. Hopefully, this would not be the same case for us. United as always, all for one ; one for all. I promise to treasure the remaining days with all of you. :D Be it Sec 1 or sec 2, this is the best class.

笑里藏刀

2010-10-25T01:41:00.000-07:00

Hello , just came back from Northpoint. Almost spent one whole day over there until my legs a little bit sore liao. Hmm, did CIP work which we had to go to some houses and introduce/teach them about recycling. Quite relax cos most of them say they knew alr which we believe cos they put some garbage bags at their doorstep. Mr. Yeung went through our results & was a little disappointed cos I didn't know our school's/class standard were quite high. Hope my appeal would be successful. :)

After school, went to find Mr. Ang. I thought my marks got problem but in th end, no problem. Aiyo, what a waste ~ went to NP. didn't eat a lot cos no more pasta liao T.T eat my cheese BALLS and treated Denise one. Accompanied Agnes to buy her make-up items. Denise and I were clowning around which makes Lelia and Agnes dk what to do. We're considered clowns :D i can't stand Denise sometimes hahahah , she make me until i no image leh. :P sian luh, left few more days to school :(

Walked around NP then Ai En and Ilynn joined us. BANANA ~ heheh, we went to Minitoons and a unglam item. LOL, boys shouldn't go! :] went to Sports Link and slacked. Waaseh, we must have been a nuisance to those salesman cos we didn't buy anything yet we still made a mess of their places. Saw many friends and one of them was being 'bullied' by my friends. Haix, shouldn't have told them his name. Feel apologetic towards him though. Tonight got pork chop! hurray!

You ruin th whole class

2010-10-21T04:42:00.000-07:00

Hey everybody, today's really a tiring & hot day. Anw, th sport that we're playing for today is actually wushu. -.- I thought it would be sports like floorball, frisbee blaa blaa. Something like sports carnival but didn't turn out to be wushu cos tat time alr say last lesson then now still have. The beginning part is damn ______ . I didn't even want to play yet i have to go chase and catch my friends. I must have been a nuisance. Got me really pissed and decided not to play anymore. WTH? somemore, i'm th only 2e8 girl except Atika who volunteered herself. Anyhow do luh, that coach also dun care de. During break time, sth or rather someone got me really angry. Wanted to scold her so much but we won't do it cos we noe tat person is a _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .

Went to Kranji farm. Mdm Foong brought her 2 childrens along too, some sort of cute. :D i don't really like kids ; somehow. Except when they're toddlers or baby [when they are nt crying, of cse] . Hahah, cannot stand th way when they make a fuss. Hmm, walked around the farm and got some free things. Quite good actually, we got pay money one hor! the caterpillars were really gross. Feel so disgusted when i see their hairy bodies, feel so EEYER. Planted my tomato plant but i doubt it's going to survive after I added so much water hehehe. :P mama agnes was so scared cos she thinks it's dirty. Erm, at least not dirtier than the Sec 2 camp one. That one was really filthy. Mum was rather surprised cos she tot only got 1 tomato plant but brought back a lot of things.

Bus-trip back was coool cos we keep dee-siaoing agnes mama. Hope nxt year still can go same class as you luh or else you won't be bullied by me which is considered as a service. ^.^ tmr will be going out [hope so] cos no school! few more days of sch b4 sec 3. I'll miss 2E8 for sure, i will miss of your laughters. Of course not forgetting our jokes, Kar heng, Nikas, Rosydi accompanied by his 3 partners [Zhi jun, Adrian and Azfar] and also the small ones LOL! This 2 years in 1E8/2E8 have been really great. Time really flies quickly, so fast we're splitting already. 2 years ago, i was still rather unhappy cos this school dun have anyone whom i knew a lot from NLPS. But I had lots of friends within 2 years in YSS. Thanks, hope we'll stay in touch after we graduated.

How I wish time could rewind ; impossible.

2010-10-20T04:31:00.000-07:00

Just got back not long ago, only have half an hour more befor i shut down my laptop. Knew all of my results already, was rather so called 'pissed' with my literature and geography results. I should have got a A1/A2 for the paper but overall still A2 luh. A little bit disappointing though. My sci uh, alr knew th result but refused to learn the truth and prayed that God will help me. Nevertheless, I've only myself to blame. Hmm, english paper 2 got 30/50. Okok la cos my target is just a b4. I have no confidence in myself ; totally bah. I hate my results, all like 1-2 more marks to nxt grade. Wth ! a little bit indignant about it.

I was rather surprised at my IT results though. I didn't even align the pictures properly and i didn't highlight at all. LOL! Idk how the teacher mark hahaha. Nvm, better than nothing right? Stayed back for the dk SEL workshop. It was kinda delayed cos of the group's performance which really makes me annoyed as I wanted to go home early to watch my tv shows! :D anw, had some fun and making new friends too ~ Lucky draw - so freaking lucky that i won the oreo, never won anything in my life before [as long as i can remember] cos i stm one. Why dun u let me win a guitar then? :P or maybe money?

No such person exist in your heart

2010-10-19T00:38:00.000-07:00

Hey all, sorry for not posting for so long. Haha, got back some of our results already. Still dk about my maths cos Mr. Yeung say i got some careless mistakes so he tried to 睁一只眼，闭一只眼。Hopefully, can add some marks bah! :D got back our home econs paper le, 60.5/80 after calculating but rather scared cos i dk whether teacher will minus my marks or not! aiyo, i still want my A1 de okay! History paper was rather cooool. Thought I had much confidence in myself, i'm still worried. B4 grade uh! that seq 1a - 0 marks ! I should have put what I've thought but i was worried. :(

Hehehe, i saw my art result, i was laughing out loud cos so long nvr get 60 + marks for art le. U can say that my art is rather bad :) Laughed so much during art time tat my face went red. Holiday go out play badminton! :p anargh! stupid chinese luh! pull down my grade, was rather disappointed with a B4 grade. Like wth lor, i got high marks for all th tests but when it comes to exam, how come it dropped so much? wouldn't care so much but i want to pass my science. One of my worries too. T.T

Thanls for letting me how you feel. Though it may be a shock/blow to me, but i chose to accept the way u feel. If u hadn't told me, maybe I'd nvr know. For the past 1 year [cos i weren't that close to u when i was in sec 1] , sometimes going out with you would really make me laugh until dk like wad. You won't give me any stress when I'm with you. Yeah, i admit i am biased towards friends I cared. But seriously, it's not like I don't care about you at all. I like the times with you although most of the times, my hand would be injured after ur pinching. I'm used to waiting for th bus with you cos time would always fly quickly. You belonged to my best friends world, you'll always be my friend. But something you're different from other friends is that I won't feel awkward when we go out together. Somemore, I knew that without you as a important friend, I'd never be like who I am now. Remember our first outing when we watched the Harry Potter movie? It was absolutely awkward then. No matter what, i don't want u to become th next _ _ _ _ _ _ _ which I have lost alr. I lost a friend before, hopefully we won't end up like that. I promise I won't neglect u anymore.

A virtual world ; full of imaginations

2010-10-08T04:26:00.000-07:00

Oh man.. monday's maths exam! i better start my revision soon! :D hmm, kinda looking forward to End Of Examinations! I hope Ilynn & Denise will keep their promise to go to Karaoke! dun later give excuses dun come hor, i wait for so long liao.. so better go! oh yea, chinese exam was okay-okay, found the 珍珠鸟 passage quite hard. I didn't know the story at first cos that day when 莫老师 is going through, I was sick so didn't pay attention to what she say. I think my 6m fly away liao ~ just hope can get a A2 for chinese! Now, I'm alone at home cos mum went to grandma's house & bro went out. Sometimes, alone is quite a scary thing, tend to think a lot. :( Finished my IT project but dk Mr. Zahlan got check properly or not.

Went to ilynn's house for no reason haha. I also dk why we're going in the first place. Janelle wanted to cook mee so we went to 7-elevens to buy the cup noodles but went to Ilynn's house to cook. Aiya, since she wan go back home take $$$, we might as well accompany her! *laughs* since CNY, I havent gone for her house! tat day go her house damn funny, found 115 but can't find her block! :@ she still come fetch me in the end. Then, she still forgot to return me oranges! :P wow . Today, went to her house wif more ppl instead. [Denise, Janelle, Pravitha and the 2 of us.] Pravitha was treating her house like as if it's her own house, eat here and there, watch tv till so shiok! Was rather a little late for our maths remedial. Mr. Yeung told us 1.45 pm start but we reached around 2 plus.

Headed back to school quickly and found them inside library. Vanessa was sitting outside cos she could nt stand the library smell. *High-five!* sometimes, the smell is really unbearable. Dunnoe how to describe the smell luh. It's not those dirty smell but got one scent. Did the maths question, found it okay bah. :] was half-karaoke-ing wif Pravitha but she keep moving, causing my ear piece to drop. Went home at around 4 plus bah. Side gate nvr open then have to u-turn again. This school hor, actually quite good one but it's the gates that it's not convenient. Sometimes, 1 gate closed, still have to walk 1 big round. Especially the 800 there, no short-cut u know! have to walk 1 freaking long way... waste time

Happy to get over it.

2010-10-06T01:35:00.000-07:00

Science paper was really difficult for me! Yesterday, used 4 hours to copy the notes & end up hands damn tired. When I first saw the paper 1, I was like totally '' WHAT THE HELL?! '' skipped Mcq questions cos dun feel like doing it then go paper 2 ler. Haix, I'm worried about the results although the paper is over already. :( tmr's literature paper... My only hope of getting a A1. I'm gonna chiong no matter what. Let me post about yesterday's story then...

Reached school and saw someone. :D During maths lesson, dk what happen to me. Suddenly keep sweating (cold sweat). A moment hot, a moment cold. I just feel that something is wrong wif me then went to the toilet wif mama. Vomited out all my recess food. Argh.. feel much better after that. Sorry mo lao shi, didn't meant wan to sleep during ur class but I've gt no energy.. I got 39.5/50 for my test. yay ~ so happy !

Revived that last chance

2010-10-04T01:57:00.000-07:00

Not a good day today ok! Alright, school's really _____ today. Though I hate the fact tat 2 of my papers were like atrocious, it was still not really a bad day for me. PW : Mr. Raju didn't come so free period. Lol, it's free period everytime too. :] I tot english lesson would be a free period *wait long long* then Ms Chua gave us a set of maths paper! argh... i hate to do maths paper, the fact that I knew that it would be totally suckish. I wanted to ask some friends how they do it but Denise & Ilynn were right far behind while I'm at th front so can't ask them. Wanted to ask Pravitha but she was sleeping and she didn't even finish 1 question yet. Lucky, got Hui Si to help me or else gg liao.

P.E was cooool. I was rather angry with myself for missing so much times. Feel apologetic towards my team mates whom tried to get the ball back for me especially Yee Cheong. She did really great :D both defending and attacking! Denise & I failed to destroy someone LOL! kidding luh, I know it's a game. I treat games very seriously. We must take everything seriously okay! :p But I must compliment our group afterall , I think our breakaway is rather good. Was totally exhausted after playing and I bet I'm sweating the most hehe. Of cse ! Ran here and there, have to defend and get the ball. Haix, nxt time might nt have a chance to play anymore :(

Went to AVA for geog lesson. Ilynn and I were discussing about some issues of 3/9 and 3/10. I tell u uh, 3/9 is for me ! I open de , specially for ppl who loves music! ^.^ 3/10 - no nid to study one, karaoke can ler. Stayed back after school for science remedial. I'm tired of getting nine's for my test paper!!!! :@ can't I go above that?! oh man... I don't care, I'm gonna be a super guaikia and study for my science paper tonight. Woooohooo ~ pork chop tonight! Cab-ed home wif mama agnes. Waited for a long time zzzz. Karheng was at th opposite side, he was hailing a taxi too so we compete wif him lor. Of cse we win la! tell him already. :B th taxi uncle also very cute, still knows hw to speak chinese though he's a indian! Pravitha, must learn from him or else very hard to communicate!

It's good to find out secrets!

2010-10-01T00:22:00.000-07:00

My that mama of mine now is really damn angry and shy le bah. :D she must feel like killing me alr right?! nehnehnipoopoo! who ask u ownself tat time write inside ur blog. Wah , he not bad-looking leh! alright, shall stop here then b4 she comes spamming my phone again! :] english paper were ______ no words to describe it bah. Dk if it's easy or hard, totally speechless. Hmm, probably this will be my last post as exams are here already so probably won't online unless have free time. This is really a short short post cos I've nothing to post. BYE!

When regrets comes first

2010-09-30T01:26:00.000-07:00

Hey all , was supposed to use green [according to what my horoscope says] This is considered navy green right? Lol, some of u might think that i'm over superstitious but sometimes, it's really accurate okay! Watched the 2 groups performed for drama today. Can say Denise & Adrian was really good. Especially when they argued and fight, although it's quite funny, definitely better than ours. They got high marks for sure.. looking at the crap I'm performing last wk, it's way better! Argh, i really dislike chemistry a lot. Formulas + symbols and equations = headache. Still negatively and positively charged, what's th point of learning so much when in th end, most of th ppl will forget? Can't we learn about sth more realistic, something useful for our career in the future?

Ms Rohini went through some stuffs about river. Was already famished before recess or rather in th morning assembly? hahah, i get hungry easily cos I'm very 贪吃. Mr. Yeung gave us a eoy paper to practice again. I see th 1st question, dun feel like doing it already! omg... what happen to my maths? I didn't even revise, how am I supposed to answer those questions? at least notify us a day earlier so we can prepare earlier mah but i guess i'm too lazy to study too. :D can't blame me, yesterday was really busy. Had to go for performance class later in th evening.. zzzz The China instructor , dk what she talking luh! She like not happy when I only performed 1 song. Like wth, th service counter lady say just perform anything rite?! lazy to argue wif her too.

Got back my english compre paper. A little bit disappointed though, some questions i knew how to answer but dk hw rephrase only. Merely a pass! whaa.. not a very hard paper too. T.T Hmm, tmr will be the first paper. How am I supposed to handle it ? I guess I'll go through some notes bah.. nothing much to revise too. Hope they will be caught in a traffic jam! :P Bus-ed home wif mama though she kip spam calling me. I purposely go kup her. Muahahah ~ P/S : Thanks Yee Cheong; xiao qiang & Ilynn; daughter for protecting me today when this mad mama of mine went hitting ppl after i purposely go beat her bottle when she's drinking. Anw, thanks for shielding and end up, 3 of us getting injured cos she pinch ppl very hard! My poor daughter... got bruises everytime.

It's all for you

2010-09-29T00:38:00.000-07:00

Hey all, it's quite a long & tiring day for me. Early in th mrn, still nid to study for my science cos i dun understand the chapters. Aiya, even reading le, i still dun understand. :( Sci test is quite hard [for me] and almost 10 marks gone becos of the last page. Some of the mcqs already caught me blur blur liao. Hmm, chinese teacher didn't come today so relief teacher come. Half-way, Mr. Ang came back again! wth , i don't want science again. Since the last test incident, he began to guard against us le. I don't think he trust us anymore. :) But at least, he still gave us a packet of biscuits! :D

Literature time! Everytime not enough time to present de cos Mr. James seems to have plenty of things to tell us. The Noose again hahahah but it's a funny show. When it was Azfar's group to present, he super funny leh. Just see his expressions already got me laughing with Denise. He very serious type one but sometimes, his words can make th whole class laugh. I'll definitely miss this class for sure. T.T oh yeah, went to AVA theatre for history. Mr. Tan went through some important factors to study for EOY. Nearly fell asleep cos it's such a conducive place. Woke myself up in th end -.-

Time really flies quickly, it's wednesday already! 2 more days and th first EOY paper will arrived. Oh nononono~ Idw leh... i still in a happy-party mood, no mood to study at all hehe. No choice, I'm gonna chiong for my EOY! I still wan get in 3/7 wif Agnes & Pravitha de. Went to IT lab for lesson. Such a peaceful moment.. without the boys! Eh, without th boys interrupting, screaming like nobody's business, is indeed a rare moment. The class is very quiet, everybody is concentrating on their work. Wahhh ~ shiok uh! was supposed to stay back [instructed by Mr. Yeung] but in th end, cancelled.

下一秒的事，你永远不知道。

2010-09-28T04:25:00.000-07:00

刚才的情绪真的有点过度了。我没事了，谢谢。Hey, supposed to be a great day today. Last night almost gt insomnia cos I was thinking about Home Econs. So, during that 1 hour of turning here and there, i was thinking of '' Okay, cook the garlic first then add the meat. Fry for a while. '' And it was around 12am plus then i fell asleep so I actually used 2 hours of my sleeping time to think about the Home Econs. How pathetic -.- Wahh, bag today very heavy la! almost broke my hand and the plastic bag looks as if it was going to tear sooner or later. Oh man.. I seriously hate washing the plates! All damn sticky one, nvr wash properly. [aiming at myself] Cut here and there, cook here and there, run here and there, I seem to be very busy. :D Though I've only tried cooking this dish 1 time b4 and it was wif my mum's help, everything seems alright.

Woohoo~ let some of my friends tasted the food. I still remember what Atika said, '' Too sweet! '' hahahs, i was still thinking why no taste de. Perhaps when i gave the others eat, the food is already cooled liao so not nice! Did a mother-daughter feeding . LOL! can u imagine 2 of us using a tissue to take out th food? lmao. Tasted Lukris's fruit salad & th orange was quite sour! awww.. actually he quite good luh. He still helped me to turn on th stove and decorated my dish. ^.^ Got back my history paper. Yay! A1 muahahah! just memorized can le. Did a teaching survey and I tio Mr. Yeung, Mr. Raju and Mr. Kamal. Seriously, Mr Raju didn't did much thing during his lesson but i didn't write any bad comments abt him la.

Maths lesson sian la! did a paper again and i almost fell asleep. *You know i was kidding* Don't know how to do the art thingy luh. Waka kinatu or what? 人不像人, 鬼不像鬼. Dk why we nid to draw something so _______? can't we just draw cartoons? :P Did a writing for chinese and managed to do it quickly. Actually planned to cab home wif Lukris one but in th end, he still accompanied Weihao! nvm la, he still offered to give me $2 sia.. I was like '' you didn't cab wif me yet u still wan gimme money? ''. He can be quite good sometimes la. Board 800 wif mama which caused me giddy again cos it was moving reversing. [I mean the seat] Went to NP to find Mum and ate my favourite Pasta! [Though I've eaten for my home econs. alr] Saw a few old friends.

When it's decided.

2010-09-27T00:50:00.000-07:00

Such a typical day today. Full of ups and downs. Morning, had a free period [it's always a free period since we had nothing to do on PW] Some of them were worrying about the english test, what's there to study? It's all based on how much u understand the story and apply those skills you've learnt on them. Haha not that I'm an expert too but it's just that isn't it should be the way?! The english paper still okay la, a lot of qns about quoting words one. Got back my maths paper. The paper is hard okay! weren't surprised by my result and when I knew Agnes's result, I was like totally shocked lor. I know she did 1/4 of her work only but can't believe it uh. Aiya, me too also luh. Hanny pro luh, still can get so high! oh yeah, Mr. Yeung nvr give us kitkats! :@

Had the last lesson of Wushu. Mr. Koh tested us on what wheel thingy or rather half-somersault. Quickly finished and changed but waited for Agnes. She must be thankful cos' she's got this bunch of loyal friends who is willing to wait for her until we left 10 mins for recess. (: Learnt gymnastics since Primary 1-2 so still can do it. I was so dizzy after spinning here and there. :X argh.. ate bun again for recess. Tmr , hope I won't be eating the same food again. :D Geog was a little boring cos I dun like the chapter of River. Assembly talk is about Stress Managment. Aiyo, might as well spare us from all these talks cos it's equally boring! can't we have a concert?! LOL, psps i'm crazy. Took 800 wif Ilynn;daughter. :P

A new start with you.

2010-09-24T01:03:00.000-07:00

Yooo, school's over & finally arrives the weekend! Now listening to Elva's new album. (: this mth a lot of ppl release album uh? Today got science retest but it was the same paper. Phew... or else die liao. Mr Ang will set the paper until very hard one. No one admitted yesterday. We dun even know the person so how to admit? funny sia, aiya heck care luh. I'd prefer my second test result cos my 1st paper result got a lot of mistakes. Hahah, after checking th ans, i'd prefer 2nd one luh. Got that fire alarm thingy, today also not total defence day. -.- Aiya, can skip 1 period of science so nvm la. Waited until the hot sun for nearly 20 mins then headed to com lab for music. Didn't really did a lot of things today. Did paper 1 for maths. It seems harder than paper 2. Die le T.T

Hmmm, trying to be a investigator during recess with Yee cheong and Denise. I ate chicken bun for 5 days alr ! omg... from mon-fri , i everytime oso eat chicken bao. Wahhseh! Actually very hungry one but becos of the maths, no mood then dun feel like eating. Dun waste food! :D Ahem.. should apply this phrase to Agnes. MT test was okay la, still got time to rest. Did comprehension for english. Lucky ms chua nvr announce the oral marks. P.E was cool ~ Cracked a few jokes with Mr. Koh. Actually he considered quite a nice person luh. Ran 3 rounds and end of day~ aiyoo, laogong today piggyback me! almost fell down O.O bus-ed home wif mama who was busying munching her cookies. Still borrow $0.10 from me! muahahahah, u da fei zhu!

My prediction was right ; a bad day for me.

2010-09-23T00:59:00.000-07:00

Firstly, I want to clarify something with u guys first. I'm in a bad mood today, try messing with me and I won't show you any mercy. Secondly, stop criticising if you can't do the same too. I accept opinions but your words are not worth listening, I won't take in. Lastly, don't gloat over other people's misfortune. -> specially for someone who agitated me over and over today. I don't want to mention your name though I really feel like. But if you all ask me, I'd say. You're lucky today cos not only you make me angry, there are other things that ruined my mood.

Drama was terrible. Jia min didn't come and it affected me. Both mentally and physically, i would say. Our performance is not really good. I really tried to speak louder though I was distracted by other stuffs. Thx Azfar & Aravind for everything. I thought that once drama is over, everything would be fine. Neither did I realise this was only the start. Some _ _ _ _ _ _ _ went to tell Mr. Ang someone cheated. don't let me catch you. *evil smile* We alr got someone in our mind. I hope I was wrong.

Maths was still okay-okay. Didn't really did a lot of things for geo-cdl today. Had a karaoke session with Denise and Ilynn. At least still can vent some of my unhappiness out. Did a report for english. Then something happened ... Stop spoiling my mood okay?! Bus-ed home with Agnes & Vanessa. There was also Niklas but he went to sit somewhere else. Then the 812 bus broke down and we were already at the interchange alr. Oh man. Saw Vanice and had a talk with her. She reminds of me of Primary 6.

To be honest, hearing you calling my name again really seems to be so shiok but unfortunately, I was at a bad mood today. Maybe you didn't make me angry today and I was really looking to the day you would call my name again. Surprisingly, you just called out my name for .... nvm.

Busy keeps me from thinking of you.

2010-09-22T01:03:00.000-07:00

Time is running out, yet I still have time to online. Lol, I agree that we must study & work hard for th coming exams but can't we just relax ourselves? sorry for not posting the last 2 days cos I was really busy that i got no time to play my games too. Geog & History test supposed to be quite okok, hope I can do well. Science test actually considered quite easy since we learnt it before alr. I think I still make some stupid mistakes. Haha, today not really feeling well cos yesterday ate Laksa for lunch and curry fish head for dinner. Stomach upset... :( Friday still got one chinese test then nxt wk gonna be a hard time. EXAMS ARE COMING! T.T

Mr. James showed us the Noose videos again. Hehehe, so funny :] Hope The Noose 4 will come soon! hmmm. went to AVA for history. Wahhh, air con! :P I think my IT test result will be ______. :x I didn't highlight, didn't arrange the pictures accordingly & many mistakes. I'm a computer idiot okay? or should i say I'm poor in doing all these Microsoft while pro at other computer gaming? Dun care luh, not a important subject too. Took Bus 800 cos it's raining. Hate it when school is gonna end cos i cant take bus 812 ! :@ waste my time only. Went to buy my lunch and headed home. Woohoo!

Another vulnerable side of everyone

2010-09-17T04:16:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone, hope it's clear enough. (: now listening to Feilunhai's 4th album songs. They improved a lot but to me, I still think that their 1st and 2nd album is the best. Now they use too many techno & hip-hop songs alr. Went to AVA theatre for science lesson. Woohoo~ got aircon leh. But it's morning so still feel like sleeping haha. I see the EOY chapts. almost fainted. Music lesson was a disappointed one. Used Wirya's song for the rap. Wonder how we're gonna rap. :D Ms Seng was quite pissed with us. Can feel the sensation lah. Haix, our fault luh... :(

I hate chap. 5 of maths lor! I do until damn fed-up. You all can ask Denise or Ilynn. I was like showing my displeasure but still nid to do right?! no point complaining, must as well save my breath and time. Compo test was still okay okay. Ms. Chua let us practice our oral & I thought picture discussion would be the disastrous. Remained in class for P.E since there was a survey. Mr. Muru came to relief us then Mr. Ng. He told us that he was one of the examiners. Horror ! lol. He's the DM leh ~ Was praying my examiner won't be him!

Stayed at the library for 2 hours. Almost rotted there. :P Actually, planned to go Northpoint one but that Agnes say she wan go KFC instead. In th end, all stay in school! seriously, i don't like to back-out suddenly. # no offence though. Oral time ! Saw th picture and my mind went blank? Wth are they doing?! Idk how to explain in english. That agnes hor.. she go steal my place for no reason. -.- My examiner was Mr. Hasrin. They say he very strict de but i found him quite friendly what. Bus-ed home wif Agnes.
对不起。。。

I can't be that important afterall

2010-09-16T01:20:00.000-07:00

Tmr will be a dreadful day ! got so many tests and I'm going bonkers alr. Haha. Today, didn't had any drama performance cos ms shida isn't here and we haven't do the rap yet. Yeah, it's quite often that we get disputes but hope everyone learns something after that. Everybody has their own thinking's so we can't probably ask everybody to shut up right? Hmm, didn't really did a lot for drama luh. Azfar was very 细心, I don't know what the english translation for that but he's really very good. Still gave us a draft of what we're going to do. He's quite a responsible student, not that noisy as others too. :D Was hoping that recess would come soon cos only during recess then I can talk to my friends without caring about teacher will scold or not.

Continued to do the maths revision. Was trying to chiong finish cos I dun wan any homework. Lol. Geog lesson seems to be getting harder? I think that the LDC one more simpler cos at least that one is life geog not 'dead' geog. My 生活常识 is considered okay-okay so I preferred the latter one. Went to Multi-purpose room for english lesson. :o did oral [picture discussion] again. When I faced Vanessa, I could feel stress hehe. Her english so good leh, i scared malu lor. Lucky, she very good. :P Considered quite lucky alr, Ms Chua never pick my no. to perform or else surely kacha! :X bus-ed home wif mama. Waited for so freaking for that 812 bus. Chatted wif her & I realised she's really 100 % crazy about audi! *boo*

Maybe in ur heart, I'm nothing. But when our eyes met today, I only want that moment to stay forever. You meant everything to me. Seeing you like this, it also breaks me down. It's not only you that is suffering, I am too. 快点好起来！

Never fails to amaze me with your charm.

2010-09-15T00:34:00.000-07:00

School's pretty enjoyable today, a little bit nervous about literature lesson only. Science lesson damn boring. New chapter again -.- haix, i only understand a few parts of what he's saying. Went to Lab for chinese lesson. Quickly finished the assignments so my answers were not logical at all. This few weeks is rather crucial. Exams are coming soon ~ Stress? I'm still not sensing any stress.. I everytime last minute then study de. Except during PSLE period :D Hmm, tomorrow will probably be the drama performance day. Hope I can do well & may all of us remember our lines. :] Lit presentation was cool. A little nervous so pronounced some words wrongly or too last bah. Ilynn's damn cool, purposely go emphasize the word ''monk'' infront of karheng. The whole class laughed. :P

Went to AVA for history. Nothing to elaborate about. Lols. Then went to Computer Lab for IT lesson. Did the test & survey. Dun even bother to write some suggestions cos I've nothing to say to the school at all. Woohoo! Mr. Zahlan finished showing us the powerpoint thingy and went back home. Luckily, managed to catch my bus cos yesterday was too slow alr. Oh yah, saw our class photo alr. Pretty fast , i would say. Only bought 1 cos I think the yearbook will print again so dun waste $$ better. My money is used for some other important things. :B Hehe. Such ppl rather spend money on buying photos then going out. # Save me from Denise ! She hits me argh !!!! ~~~~~ -> put for fun nia.

Guarding against

2010-09-14T00:54:00.000-07:00

Hey all, just came back from school. Yesterday was busying trying to connect my laptop to the internet. My internet connection got some technical problem so only came online at around 9 plus pm & I onlined for only a few minutes haha. Home econs. was rather terrible today. No wonder what happen to our potatoes, it taste like a rock. :l Thanks a lot , my daughter. I know some things you're being forced to do. Sorry for not helping you to clear up the mess after the whole cooking. I knew it's rather disgusting. As a cleaniless freak, I tend to avoid all these scenes. Anyway, thanks a lot. :D cooking with you have been a great time, especially when we always miss out one or two steps to perfection.

Was looking forward to recess. But when it reminds me of that potato thing we cooked, I dun feel hungry anymore. LOL. Ilynn forgot to bring her history file so both of us were finding Crystal. Luckily, she brought her worksheet along so Mr. Tan didn't suspect her at all. Lucky girl ~ Hate art luh! I don't feel like drawing at all. That laogong of mine said that my face look like a squirrel! What the?? nvm la cos I also find my own drawing totally unglam. I've no talent at all so dun expect me to draw something that looks like Picasso's drawing! Mr. Yeung didn't come today, wonder what's with him these few days. At least notify a day earlier so my bag won't be that heavy!

Some 2/5 peeps came to our class for chinese lesson. Quite noisy luh, our class. Jun Zhi make me laugh like siao. He go spin his thumbdrive which hit his own head too. :P hmm, tomorrow will be a tired day for me. Hope it's not presentation for our group tmr cos I'm rather nervous alr muahahaha ~ so fake lor, as if I'll be nervous. I'd be nervous if it's drama performance. I hope my drama group can get rather high marks, we've put our time and lots of effots into it. *Hopefully* Bro will be coming back tmr, bet he won't buy any presents de la.. Bus-ed home wif mama & she's yet to reply my msg. Guess she must be really too addicted to her game alr. Alright, that's all for today. Cya ~
Really shocked but it's too much of a coincidence. But I take it as fate. ^.^ If I had taken a big step yesterday, perhaps it'd be my day then. I don't blame anyone/anything. Like I've said, I promise to cherish the times with you. Iloveyou

Your forgiveness is something I've been wanting to get.

2010-09-11T21:19:00.000-07:00

Let's talk about the sentosa trip. I was already not happy when my cousins wanna tag along when my parents only want to bring my grandmother along. They squeezed my father's car again. Was waiting for my agnes mama msg for a long time cos I guess only she knows how I feel.. Reached there very early and took a few photos. Some tourists also asked me to help them to take photos. Finally, Uncle. J & Aunt C. came. All the restaurants seems to be fulled alr so went to BreadTalk lor. After eating, tour around IR but didn't went in the Universal Studio [phew..] cos tickets all sold out already. The price of 1 ticket is damn ex lor.. want extort also not so overboard bah?

My cousins wanna go to the beach so went to Siloso beach. Super hot over there luh! should have brought my sunglasses there along. Saw some volleyball competition & saw a few celebs too. Whoa, Felicia Chin! she very pretty luh. Saw other artises like ; vivian lai, lee teng, paige chua, julian hee, yvonne lim, kingone wang + + They were filming th ch U show , not nice de. :D so many ppl also . After a few hrs at the beach , went to the Underwater World. Ex lor ! nvm, mum say 久久来一次. Will upload a few photos & videos later on. Planned to buy some souvenirs one but again, EXPENSIVE!

Dolphin lagoon was bored to tears. Can't even see a single thing! waste of money . Should have asked for a refund!! LOL, can't blame me for being so unreasonable cos going to Sentosa is totally a waste of money! Unless u wan to gamble or go to the USS lor. Headed back home after that. My cousin vomitted in my father's car. OMG... i can't stand the smell. Actually, i was sick at that time cos of the humid weather. But before i could puke, my cousin puke first. :P lucky, after he puke, i don't feel like vomitting alr. Hahas, was trying to get some fresh air cos the smell

intolerable.

Oh man, I just hate this feeling

2010-09-06T01:48:00.000-07:00

Hey all , xin le is back again after a few days of emo (: later gonna upload a short version of ''happy birthday'' for ah jing. Happy birthday to her :D 1st time celebrating her birthday cos last year still not so crazy about her yet. Today stayed back at school for very long. Science remedial + maths remedial. Been dreading today the most cos i don't feel like taking my science results. Ilynn's great person. She never probes about my result at all. I guess she's a more mature type. Hahah, my daughter leh!! was emo-ing until Denise & Ilynn keep making me. Wth, agnes's scratch caused my hand to have a scar now. Now still have okay! violent seh, dun make me sue u uh. :P wahhh, it's really obvious lor. Nxt time dun go near her better, she will take your things for no reason.

Maths remedial was bored to tears. Shannon and I were complaining. LOL, we don't feel like doing it mah. Mr. Yeung still gave us the O lvls maths paper to do leh! killer ! haix, i will go bonkers soon ~ after remedial, went out to buy tidbits to eat then headed back to school. Was touring around the school with Shannon. Jalan here and there. Went back to 5/1 classroom and waited for Denise they all to come back. Tmr will be a torturing day though much of it will come from Ms Shida. T.T Went to AVA theatre for science remedial. [4 hours okay?!] didn't really pay attention but I wanted the sweet so much.. Hehe. 黑糖大豆 woohoo! after remedial, went to Mr Ang's office. Actually, he quite good leh. Still let us take sweets. Finished everything & took a cab home.
Why are things becoming like this? You gave me a slight smile & waved at me but I couldn't feel any joy. Maybe I'm really sticking around you too much? I've to wait for chances like this to get near to you. Yeah, I admit what I did was pretty obvious and I'm sorry. All I did was for you, I don't meant any harm anyway! If only you could let me explain everything... maybe I have nothing to say to you already. I really wanted to change.

It only takes a thing to destroy everything.

2010-09-03T00:06:00.000-07:00

A reckless me was wanting to die just now. Agnes gave me a lecture, she makes me realise that losing isn't scary, it's the outcome that it's scary. The thought of dying is terrifying but when I came to realise that I'd be free of everything, it brings me some joy. I didn't thought of many things at that moment. I have suffered setbacks before but this time, I really want to give up so much. That's the another side of me, a side that you people that it's very unusual for me to do that. But I was numbed ; completely. I walked among the crowd, without any feelings. All I want to do is to hide at a place ; a place where nobody would find me. I hate to face the cruel reality. It would breaks me down sometimes but also, makes me happy for no reason.

这次的打击实在是让我无法控制自己的情绪。面对死亡的念头，我还是有点害怕。被麻痹的我，那时没想这么多，只想找个属于我的地方。我真的好讨厌现实。相反的我，就是这样的我。结局不由我决定但生命是由自己决定的。这种选项，我宁愿一个人去承担。我觉得我好对不起一位老师。。。。。她一生投入在教学上，身为她的前学生，我既然想过要结束一切。突然想逃离的我，想到了这一句话：‘我反抗，又怎样？’现实是不可能被改变的，休想要我振作起来。也许，我真的需要思考我到底要什么。我会找到最后的出路，让一切都变成过去

If I could occupy a small place in your heart

2010-09-02T01:02:00.000-07:00

Hey all, got nothing to do so decided to come and post. Wasn't looking forward to today though cos got drama early in th mrn and science practical test which I didn't revise at all. I'm dreading drama lesson now and then cos of Ms Shida. To be honest, I really don't enjoy myself in drama class anymore.. I can't find any joy in it. At least last time, I still look forward to each lesson because our teacher is still Ms Seng. Haix, 命苦啊~ :( Nvm, practical test was a don't-know-how-to-describe one. The white colour powder go make my table full of it. Damn dirty but when I saw my hand stained with acid, I was like dk wad to do.

Didn't really pay attention to Mr. Yeung during maths lesson cos i was thinking of other things. I looked at my results and I began to worry. I was shocked that I couldn't get to a class like 3E8?! wth. Perhaps I just need to work a little harder, a few more percent then can go to th class i want already. I admit I'm rather slacking around too much. Idw to be demoted to NA!! aiyo, all i need to do is be a little hardworking then can le. :D make it sound until so pessimistic. Chatted wif Ilynn for a long time about maple. :P hehehe. Ms Chua didn't come today so we just do our own work lor.

Honestly, i don't like the feeling.

2010-08-31T01:43:00.000-07:00

Hey people, honestly, I don't feel updating my blog alr. What's the point of updating everyday when u ppl just come and leave? Somemore, it's just a waste of time. Additionally, it can't speak my feelings. I rather to voice out in real life than in virtual! Yeah, my mood isn't good today. The 3km walk was really long but not as tiring as the camp one. That one i walk until my leg almost broke. -.- Haha, my fav. part was the concert. [except th part which 'he' played th guitar] I admit I'm jealous that he've got the chance to perform on stage but once once once again, I'm angry that 'he' can be quite _____ sometimes. Nvm, let's not spoil my mood for tis person. I tink solo's are better. (: When I heard fadhli sings, omg ~ th mike got problem!! or else I'd be able to listen to their group's lyrics.

After school, I thought of going back to Nlps then ws texted me that she's not going. Ok, i accepted it. At first, I was worrying about whether she will call me & ask me to hurry up. FYI : I'm oftenly late. :D Aiya nvm la. Already texted Ms Asma , she said its okay. ^.^ No matter where I am , you'll always be the teacher that I respect the most. [This answer answers to Mr. Yeung's question about the benefits of being a teacher.] However, not every teacher is like that. Like for Mr. Yeung & 莫老师, I still respected them by giving them Teachers Day present. Waseh. Only Denise & I gave them presents. Wth, at least give them some pens to repay them luh. I can't be bothered alr, I've got thousands things to do. omg.. I can't stand you sometimes. Now what you want? Huh? I won't budge in, you wait & see. I've warned you one time again.

In my heart, I thought you would always give me surprises. Indeed a 'surprise'. Broke my heart when I saw you with ..... don't let my nightmares be true. I can't afford to lose you. *I've got no reason to give you anything cos' something's missing.* 只爱你，绝不动摇

有个傻瓜还等着你

2010-08-30T01:27:00.000-07:00

Hey all, just now was roaming around Northpoint. Haha, today's a relax day for me though we still had some lessons... I don't seem to enjoy english lesson a lot. No idea why, maybe it could be that I dislike oral bah. Yeah, oral is coming and we're practicing for it. And everytime, I was hoping that it won't not be me. (: Thought that there might not be wushu today as Mr. Koh is absent but Mr. Muru came in and told us that lessons are per normal. -.- Mr. Yeung forgot to give us the holiday assignment so no homework! :D kicking + punching for wushu today. Yayy! 老师 say I very good! woohoo~ *happy happy!* LOL. Went to AVA for CDL. Watched X2 then I found out I still like cyclops [the one which acted in the few first films of X-men shows] cos they got 2 cyclops mah. Must specifiy clearly hehe.

Hate assembly luh, everytime tio scolded de. Lucky our class didn't get into any trouble. :P Assembly is about smoking ... AGAIN?! Early in th year, we have 1 talk liao. I know that th number of smokers is increasing but u don't have to emphasis so much rite? zzzzz , the materials used for making cigarettes is damn disgusting. Imagining me eating poisonous items.... omg. After school, went to Northpoint instead of CP KFC cos it was drizzling. Lunch-ed at Ishi Mura. Mama pok liao! No $$$, borrow from me. Charge her $0.10 for interest. :B Laogong very cute luh, everything also say nice nice. ^.^ Saw wansi'love . Waah! If she hadn't call me, I wouldn't have noticed her. Saw Lelia's glasses at Minitoons. Also saw mine!!! weee ~ Looking forward to tmr's event. Heading back to Nlps.

Things changed right after you went away.

2010-08-26T01:13:00.000-07:00

Listening to Fei Lun Hai's single now. Aiyo, I'm having mixed feelings whether to support their 4th album or not. Nvm, today's not a good day for me. Early in the morning, English Drama alr caused me to have no more mood le. Ms Shida very strict towards us today, didn't do pretty well in performing. To be honest, I'd really prefer Ms Seng to teach me. I still remember how much I love eng drama when I was still in Ms Seng's class, she never fails to make all of us laugh. Haix, I memorized the lines already but when I'm nervous, I tend to say the wrong thing. Looking forward to recess time the most cos I was really hungry :D

Maths lesson very funn! Mr. Yeung is really a good teacher, he today used a few ways which really make us laugh. I like the toy shark luh, actually I'm quite afraid of pressing it cos I see Zhi Jun complaining about his hand who was bitten ''bitten'' by that shark. Hmm, was quite safe that I wasn't call up by Ms Chua to say the picture discussion. LOL, I don't feel like posting anymore!! GOODBYE. When are you gonna come back into my life? Ever since we hadn't talk for almost one week, my week has not been a good one. That emptiness in my heart could not be replace by your warmness. I doubt there will ever be a chance that I will ever hear you saying my name again...

I get what I want ; but not you.

2010-08-25T01:20:00.000-07:00

Hey all, just came back from causeway point. You ppl must be saying that I'm mad, last fri just went to cwp now still go. Lol, my cd come le mah so went to collect. Couldn't find it in th albums display then went to th counter and ask. Ohhh, it was kept safely in a cupboard, waaseh.. lucky I got reserve or else surely end up a fruitless trip again. -.-'' I was afraid of getting science paper cos I tot I might not be do that well. To my surprise, I still passed. (: I was relieved, extremely relieved. :D although it's only 14/25 yet I don't expect to get this kind of marks cos I don't understand this chapter at all! Hope that Mr. Ang won't set such difficult paper again. Went to IT lab for chinese, finished the assignments and was allowed to surf th net. Nothing to do so Hui Si and I went around to see what others were doing.

Was quite nervous for the literature presentation. Luckily, today only 2 groups performed due to lack of time. Atika's group did quite well. Aravind's group didn't prepare properly but still got a B3 grade. Some the questions are similar to ours one so I'll brainstorm for some new ones! :] Went to AVA theatre for history. I really assumed that there was a concert... was tricked by Mr. Tan! :( So shiok inside luh , wished that we could have lessons everyday like this. IT lesson was very chiong uh ~ everybody was busying finishing the task. I also very 紧张 cos i dun wan stay back do lor. Oh yea, nxt tues is ACES day & wed's a holiday. Yayy!! Finally can relax, this friday also very shuang. No nid to go school.

I believe ; we will meet again

2010-08-24T01:33:00.000-07:00

Yo all ~ later not gonna game le cos not enough time. Got back my home econs. paper and was relieved that I passed. (: Thank God, You really cheer me up a lot. But that Ilynn got 35/50 despite th fact that she didn't even study for it ! :@ pro la her. Was rather hungry before recess, everyday also like that de. Today no practical but Denise's group have so we were like looking at what they're cooking. Looks rather weird, it's spicy & I think i won't be eating eat bah.. nxt wk must bring my sunglasses or else when I cut the onions, I'll confirm cry de. Sandwiches for recess [like I've told Ilynn] We were rather influenced by th home econs tb so decided to eat sandwiches. Eh, save money mah! saw some symptoms of problems faced by elderly. Finally can understand why Agnes eat so slow le, [elderly ppl have weaker digestive systems] LOL! jkjk.

Mr. Tan gave us back our history paper. One paper that I was afraid of getting it but my results were a surprise to me. 16/25 - It may not be a good result but to me, a paper which I thought I might flunk, got a B4 instead. Denise at first fail de but she go find teacher [hoping that teacher will give her 1/2 mark to pass] Who knows?! She got 3 more marks added! wth. Waseh, must say she very lucky lor. Did self-portrait for art and I realised my drawing weird weird one. My art is not good okay. Skipped th rest ~~ stayed back at school to finish the lit speech. Agnes also stayed back with us. She so bad uhhh! Go tear my Minnie mouse name card while we 2 were pulling at each corner. T.T my poor Minnie mouse.... nvm, tmr I'll change to another cartoon. :D bus-ed home and I wonder which part of Agnes's body will drop today. Heheh.
Though we didn't talk to each other today or met each other, I'm still happy that I saw you. I believe that we'll see other soon, by affinity.

No good to be trifle with

2010-08-23T00:50:00.000-07:00

hey everyone, really got to rush this post cos i wan go gaming de (: listening to lee hom's new album nw, finally found it after so long. Mr. Yeung gave us the visa card alr!! woohoo~ something I am looking forward for today only. Waseh, looks like a real credit card to me but I had a hard time activating it. Just now because I put my visa card inside my wallet, then when I tap my card, there's nothing. The machine can't scan my card so a free trip :D I still wanna go YOG leh!! :@ last few days of the games already then dk which country will host next. I'm proud of Singapore though our Team Singapore didn't get a gold medal yet but I believe tonight's table tennis, we'll be able to get a gold medal! Jiayous Isabelle :B make Singapore proud ~

China took so many medals alr, let Singapore get one luh or ppl will laugh at us. We're the host nation somemore. -.-'' Speaking of YOG, yesterday's soccer match make me damn angry. Brandon could have score for Singapore & the penalty shoot makes me even furious. I hate ppl that waste time la. The Haiti's footballers keep pretending to be injured and I feel like throwing eggs at them. At first, I was pitying them for what happened to their country but when I see them now, I feel damn annoyed. No wonder those Singaporeans footballers want to hit them. But nvm, jiayous for the 3rd and 4th placing match. Must get a bronze medal at least... argh!

Nothing to say about for today. The same thing is that I was being bullied by my daughter&laogong. Especially laogong ! She go spread that _ _ _ _ _ _ is my boyf , come on la, i bo boyf okay!! he's not my boyf anyway... I clarify one more time uh, that _ _ _ _ _ _ is not related to me so stop spreading rumours okay or else I'll really be angry! Tsk tsk. Lol. Got back our geog paper, 1 more mark to A1! #$%&@! chou ji dan . Finished watching tv movie, bad ending anw. Had assembly talk about Singapore Polytechnic. Aiya, now plan so much for wad? at least must wait for ur results first mah. 我的心已属于你而已。我不管人家怎么说，我只想跟你在一起。

那一丝希望 22/8/10

2010-08-21T20:18:00.000-07:00

Ask me how I am feeling now, I'd say it's still terrible. I hope my eyes aren't swollen now.. those who read my plurk/fb post would know. Yesterday's YOG diving at Toa Payoh was really cool! My 1st time seeing a LIVE sports for yog! how can i not be excited? The more people, the merrier. I was hoping that there might be extra tickets. Ilynn still came to accompany us though she doesn't have any tickets. She followed us to the bus & sat there cos Mr. Yeung said that there might be extra tickets. For that moment, I was really overjoyed. Nothing occupied my mind after that. But when everyone was present, Mr. Yeung realised that there weren't any more tickets since there were no absentees.

Ilynn had to leave and as she moves further away from me , I cannot control myself anymore. I can say that my tears were both angry but filled with sadness. Seeing her from where I am , as the darkness approaches, her shadow gradually moves further away from me. I didn't want to think of anything at first but when I looked at the moon, I wasn't that emotional anymore. I was already calming down but when Ilynn texted me, I wanted to cry again. If nxt year we different class, I bet I'd cry daily hahah. Had to force a smile when ppl talks to me. Luckily, it was dark inside the bus or else it would be so unglam

Reached there just in time. The singapore one got very low marks but not bad liao leh, can go into finals also pro! :) I knew China would win de but I was hoping for another bronze medal for Singapore. Oh yah, tonight got the semi-final for soccer right? Hope Singapore will win ~ *uncertain thought * My balloons [?] or u would say th 2 thing u use for the cheering ? Aiya, idc luh! my tat one keep hitting gordon's head then he was complaining. Who ask him so tall uh?! :P We were sitting so far back until we could fall back and fall into the swimming pool behind. Not fair luh! sit infront still can get th free gifts and can shake hands with the champions too! i wan shake hand !!!! Anw, did u all see me on tv?! i saw myself oK! Pictures are in fb, I'll upload th videos.

I'd lend you my wings

2010-08-20T01:04:00.000-07:00

So sorry that I didn't got the chance to update my blog yesterday becos I was really busy. School's pretty fun today except for the science test. I knew that 8 marks is gone alr and I bet there will be more... :( Didn't expect th paper to be so hard!!! :@ A pass will definitely be enough for me this time. Finally finished th music thingy and will be starting to write lyrics for th drama. Waahh. A heavy task to me. Though I've written over 100 songs [99.9 % are chinese] , this time will be writing a rap. I've written rap before but it's in chinese. Somemore, I've got no idea what I am writing hahah. Since Vanessa trusted me on this task, I shall not disappoint her. :D Mr. Yeung told us to wear long pants tmr or 3/4 length for tmr's YOG. So troublesome ~

Did 公函 for today. 莫老师 didn't keep her word!! I went to chiong but in th end, she said she'll be collecting th next lesson. What the -.-'' But at least, I've 1 less homework! :] Didn't do a lot of things for P.E only. Only deciding whether we wan to choose game/movement. Went to Causeway Point with mama after school. Wanted to buy ZYJ's album one but the lady say haven't come yet. Quite sad luhs.. purposely go cwp to buy her album but end up, haven't come yet. T.T that mama of mine say wan buy nail polish but after trying a few shops, still can't find th transparent PINK colour nail polish. Went home after that. P/S : it's just a day but I missed you so much

Freeze time ; freeze my love for you.

2010-08-18T00:44:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah HEY! Just nw, Agnes was pestering me to play msn games wif her but I refused. (: who ask her just now wan snatch my vanguard sheet & nearly got scolded by 1 sec 3 girl. Lucky she nvr see or else confirm get scolding from laogong de. :D was praying that sci test could postpone to friday and then, it was true. Oh yes!! Tmr got history and geog test, dun feel like studying .. haha. Nevertheless, in order to get to th class i wan nxt year, i must study ok! I've to choose between geo and history. Used to like history very much but when it comes to source-based or essay, I seemed to lose my interest. I'd rather they ask me questions about Qin dynasty or th Romance of th 3 kingdoms.. zzz .

I love recess the most. :P First thing is that we can eat together as a group. Secondly, we can chat whatever topic we want without worrying that our teachers might scold. Next is that we could laugh like one bunch of mad ppl! Sometimes, we can laugh together becos of a certain subject which makes me happy for th rest of the day liao. Nxt year, we might not have th chance to do it again. 9 of us will be separated & this is really a sad thing... :( Nvm! Got back my lit paper and was a little stunned. A little disappointed with my results. 16/25. I don't think it's good. Wad happen to my A1?! Went to AVA theatre for history. Mr. Tan make fun of Kar heng again. ^.^

I was being bullied by my 'beloved' daughter & my 'doting' husband. They 2 squeezed my head until my specs nearly dropped. Aiya, being sandwiched between them is very 辛苦 luh. Every minute must be very alert or else kanna ks also nobody know! T.T Managed to finish my IT today though th sch com is always lag. Bus-ed home wif mama. She keep hitting me la! i wan sue her for abusing child. :@ we had a cat fight in th bus. Saw Crystal too. Hehe then tat mad woman dun dare hit me anymore. *bleh* Haix, guitar lesson tmr again. I guess I need more time [don't ever think of asking me to sacrifice my computer time for guitar okay!] .

Hesitation

2010-08-17T00:44:00.000-07:00

Hello all ! Today's not really a good day for me bah.. Home econs : Forgot to put vanilla essence into the spongecake then got the egg smell. But still taste good leh! :D Mum says that she's gonna bake one of these too. Woohoo ~ but i think my house's oven cannot leh cos nid to be 180 degrees. The only thing I hate about cooking is the washing part. I can't stand it when th basin is stocked up with all the food pieces. Thu got history test so Mr. Tan revised a few things with us. Getting th extra bonus 2 marks seems so hard, might as well focus on the SBS, rather than waste ur time & do th ws which you might get wrong and result to 0 marks added too.

Mr. Yeung came back today. Taught us a new chap. today. Denise & I agreed that Mr. Yeung is very creative. He can use all sorts of methods to ensure us that we understand what he's teaching. Not like tat Mr. Ang whose already teaching us upper secs things alr!! I don't even think that I can absorb that much lor. So, thu got a total of 3 tests which could drive me crazy alr. Tmr have to chiong alr liaos. Somemore, got one unseen prose test tmr for literature which I'd no idea wad to study. Aiya, let Nature take its own course. My chinese result is really disappointing.. can't even get a A2! It's not a hard paper, u see... Haix, jiayous for nxt test lor.

When you forced me.

2010-08-16T01:11:00.000-07:00

Hahaha~ gossiping with someone now (: No history test today so day was really relax. Mr. Yeung nvr come also! aiyo, then i bring maths tb and wb for wad?! my bag damn heavy.. mostly is becos my history file. Forgot to do the lit thingy or should I say, i didn't know that today must give to Denise. I tis weekend very busy luh, sat still went for tat Tzu Chi thingy. Yesterday got that olympics games. Singapore uh.. all the swimmers out liao luh. Hmm, badminton still not bad. Aiya, from China de but Singapore's sport isn't good also. We don't depend on Sports to survive, we've got brains :D Everyone agree? hehe. P.E was fun fun fun especially when I've Ilynn & Denise. Denise keep pulling my shirt luh. :P keep making me laugh. Then tat Ilynn go do funny moves. Wahh today's Wushu lesson, i became so cheerful. :)

Shiok arh! continue watch the movie Ms Rohini showed us. I like watching shows at the AVA theatre, got air-con. Anyhow sit during assembly lesson. I keep taking Ilynn's bag cos she refused to move! waseh, i like her teddy bear so much sia. :B There was a history-drama performance by 2E6. Quite funny , at least better than those boring teachers. ^.^ Bus 812 so slow today so went to Northpoint with Agnes;mama. In order to reduce her weight , she didn't eat at all. LOL! tat sentence i write my own de. ~ no offence ~ i'm not saying that you're fat. OH NO! I just mentioned you're fat zzz. LMAO!!! Joking only okay! AGNES IS DAMN SLIM + PRETTY. DUN SAY I PAJIAO ~ *Feeling uneasy for telling a white lie* Hahahah, alright that's all for today.

You simply make me pissed off. No mentioning of names here but I guessed that my group already knew alr. Eh, don't give me one face can or not?! I accidentally hit until you only wad, gimme one face. # Note : Not that humji kia. Humji kia : Why should I make my day even unhappier? Stay away from _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ or I'll make u suffer. -> you make me do it.

When there's nobody else.

2010-08-13T00:33:00.000-07:00

Currently listening to Jolin Tsai's new album. Today's weather weird weird de. Just now , a sudden pour which drenched agnes & I but now, sunny but I think later gonna rain again. My mood for th first half of the day was quite bad [partially because of my maths result] I didn't expect that a sum which I got correct in this first place which I went to change and ended up , all 0 marks. Of course I feel angry but what else to blame? I can only blame myself for tat 4 marks which could make me pass alr... upset = jiayous for next test. Nxt week got a few tests which is enough to drive me crazy lor. Did experiments during sci lesson. Don't ever let me play with fire again!! :@ music lesson makes my head giddy. What musician am I ? zzz. I'm not fit to be one manx!! Maybe call me a lyrics composer bah hahaha.

Finished my mother tongue very fast. Lost 6 marks already for tat 综合填空. Haix, of course luh. I only spent 20 mins doing th test ! After that, I went to sleep alr. :D English lesson pass very fast eh ~ Mr. Yeung announced those who were chose to go for the YOG thingy. Feel quite sad when he didn't pick Ilynn or Denise. In fact , 3 of us planned to go together but now, only I go. :( Did height & weight for P.E. Yay ~ i grow 1 cm taller but still lost to Denise & Lelia who was 1 cm higher than me. Everytime like that de!!! *angry angry, very angry, angry very. blaa blaa* LOL! Bus-ed home wif mama after she was drenched. Muahahaha ~ who ask her dun wan run! cannot blame her, she got no more legs already. :p

When my world only revolves around you

2010-08-12T01:07:00.000-07:00

Hey all, gonna finish this post quickly so can go gaming faster (: English drama was quite okok except th part which we had to recite our lines. Oh man, why did I become the mother?! somemore tio 'scolded' in tis clip leh. Haix, but nvm... Skip Geo ~ science was still at th same chap. so obviously I tried my best to understand that Mr Ang's theory again. Sometimes, Mr Ang will teach us things that we dun nid to know de , make us even blurr only! Today dunnoe why 3 stalls in the cafeteria didn't open leh! what the -.-'' nvm, i still got my bao!! hahaha. Had a cat fight with laogong almost everyday and everytime I'm the one getting injured. Lol, confirm she win luh. I hit her 1 time, she hit me 10 times. Heheh, I wan sue her! :D

Mr. Yeung didn't return us our test papers today which I should have heaved a sigh of relief. But 长痛不如短痛. That's what I told my friends everytime. Give me 1 more day to know my results ; something I wouldn't want to know. Headed to AVA room for CDL. Continued watching the movie [A original version of local movie Home Run] Found th girl and th boy quite pitiful. We are really lucky that we've got shoes [clean shoes somemore] to wear. Don't take things for granted. :B English lesson was just highlighting some points and end of day! Bluffed Agnes & she tio one slap from me. LMAO! not those tight slap luh, just one touch on her cheek. She was like going to kill me..

Drive me crazy? Oh , you do.

2010-08-11T02:29:00.000-07:00

I'm so sorry that I didn't post last few days. Today's a brand new day for me so I'm a changed person now [in a way]. Wore my new spectacles which makes me radiant from head to toe (: Mr. Ang came back and lessons were bored to tears. I only understand a few concepts which brings me really mad. I hate science manx.. no wonder why I showed no interest in it at all. No luh , only some chapters i dun like. I still remember P6 time when Ms Asma make sure that we all pass our science. Haix, that was th only time when I forced myself to like science and fortunately, I didn't let this wonderful teacher whom I'll forever be grateful to down. Was planning to go to com lab for chi lesson but becos of th survey, we had to go back to class. :(

Went for phototaking after recess. I only worried about my eyes. My eyes would blink whenever there's a flash light, hope it won't turn out to be sleepy eyes or else nt nice! T.T Fun shot was fun fun! :D posed a few pics on top of agnes's head. Gonna make sure th photo will be damn nice! :P Lol. Headed back to class for 15 mins of Lit. I thought would get back test paper but nvr. Also good luh, dun spoil my mood for today. Hmm, went to AVA room for history. Mr. Tan never fails to make us laugh hehe. Finished editing the video thingy alr. Took Bus 800 with Crystal. Hahas, fun chatting wif her. Just nw saw the YOG flame, quite cool bahs
Yesterday's dream was really terrible. I didn't dreamt that this would happen. Luckily, it was just a dream or else I think my heart would surely tore apart. I saw you this morning, thought you were appear from th gate but you entered from another one. Facing you, i'll be happy. But whenever you're with someone else, I'd really feel like giving it up but I couldn't. Letting myself to sink deeper is probably sth i will do for th rest of my life until you disappear.

Break me down

2010-08-06T01:03:00.000-07:00

Hey , since it's such a joyous occasion , i shall use red then. Today is really a great day, did a good deed by helping the teachers to sell those things that ppl dw or haven had th chance to use yet. I also bought some stuffs from my friends since they pleaded me. Lol, saw Gordon and Jim they all running around to sell their ice-creams. Too bad I can't help them cos I've helped Atika they all by buying their coke so can't eat ice cream. Atika's stall seems to be really good , the drinks part. The peanut butter cookies has a fragrant smell. (: Saw many future entrepreneurs hahah. Helped our group & Azfar's group to sell those stuffs. Thanks for all the teachers for buying, especially one which bought around $30 worth of stuffs!! woohoo! all goes to charity! do more gd deeds and you'll be blessed. :D

The concert was really cool. My fav. was the last part which Mr. Kamal, Mr. Fahmy, Mr Clarence and Ms. Seng performed. Guitar + drums = perfect concert. As you know, I'm a big fan of rock concerts especially when they play wif the instruments. Everyone seems to be screaming and jumping except sec ones and twos. Hehe, we too tired to be screaming. LMAO. It was a short concert but it's really good. This is call a perfect concert mah. Last time those chinese dance , whatever dance, i feel like sleeping. This kind hip-hop i like! :p After helping to pack up all th stuffs, Ms. Lai gave us some money for our lunch. Yesterday she also did th same!! Thanks a lot!! :B wonder if my father will like the handkerchiefs I bought for him!! ^.^

I was really heart-brokened when I saw you taking a picture with a girl. No reason why I should feel angry/jealous cos we haven't been really together. It just makes me sad and I lost my mood because of that. However, yesterday you really cheered me up lots. Talked to me and even gave me a smile. Perhaps a smile from others won't make a difference to me but it's totally different when it comes to you. I could be hyper just because you gave me a smile. I love surprises and you gave me one today. Seeing you in th mrn today really brightens my day up. You gave me a smile and even waved at me! How am I supposed to control my feelings towards you? For you, I'll continue to pursue my dreams and achieved better results for both academics and music. I hope to perform for you one day. May that day come soon...

Don't make me angry - to some

2010-08-04T00:43:00.000-07:00

Hey , interested why my title for today's post is angry? Cos I really got fed-up today. Mr. Ang didn't come for sci lesson since he's under reservice. The class very noisy luh, can't hear what she saying also. Aiya, I also dk what she talking luh. All seem to be so chim! Yesterday quarrelled wif mum over my specs. Ask her go make , she no time . Wth, if it was my cousin, she confirm straightaway bring her go de cos my cousin is more important me. Alright, I'm pissed alr, that's why dun mention the past. Got back my chi test . 28.5/50 - disappointing result but i dun expect a lot cos i dun even feel like doing in th 1st place but can achieve tis kind of result oso miracle luh.

Sci paper also got back. I flared up when the relief teacher refused to gimme tat 1 mark which I deserve. Also, tat Pravitha go say : '' Xinle, I won u!! '' then she was grinning and smile was all over her. I feel so angry that i dashed out of th classroom right away without waiting for th rest . I went to slam th door like nobody business. 1st time i lost my temper until like that. Walao, nxt time u all see me angry, pls dun come ask me '' eh u angry uh? dun ignore me leh '' I'll scold back, i tell u. Can't u see that I'm that angry tat i would flare up? Dun come agitate me like what Agnes did. Come squeeze me during recess time. :@ don't blame me cos u come make me 1st hor.

Note : Nothing else to say anymore. Just wanna vent out my anger.

My best day with you

2010-08-02T02:01:00.000-07:00

Hey, just came back from Northpoint wif Agnes;mama and ilynn;daughter. Hmm, today's a very good good day for me except th part tat I broke my spectacles tis mrn. Went to school happily cos I know all of us confirm talk about the camp one and I can see that Agnes mama of mine! I bet she missed me like hell after nt seeing me for 5 days!! It must be a torture to her. So hor, see u dare to ignore us again or nt! Nxt time send u to old folk's home, more chium! lalalala ~ Laogong's hand got disfigured... :( haix, hope can recover soon cos i see her damn peichek lehhh.

Got back our english paper le. Woahh , i can't believe my mama got higher than me. Okay luh, she improved a lot this year so *clap clap* for her. Maths was simple, Mr. Yeung forgot to bring his 2B textbook. His heart still at the camp luh, forgot to bring back le! :D Aiya, nobody is in th mood to study after 4 days of fun! hahah. Wu shu today was sian lor. Nobody pei me de except my xiao mei! hohoho. Also got back my geog paper. 22.5/35 - to me, is ok de la cos i nvr really study a lot for it. Just continue to jiayous bah!

Nobody pay attention to th new geog teacher de. Everybody keep talking, make me fed-up cos i wanna listen. [It's rare manz!] pretend to be attentive then went for assembly. The talk not funny de lor, make me daydream nia. Headed to NP after that since I'm soo hungry liao. Mama bought sushi while Ilynn & I bought teriyaki pasta. Mama very disgusting, go take out the raw salmon cos she feels disgusted. I also think so.. raw one somemore! slacked around & saw some old friends but they nvr recognised me! T.T oh yeah, bought my magazine alr heheh. Bus-ed home after that.

Thanks for today. You really brought me a lot of laughters. I bet No. 28 is indeed my lucky number because today is 2 August and we chatted for very long. :P If everyday could be like today, I promise I'll love you like dk wad! You drove me mad straightaway. I wished I could keep my uniform with me as it contains your scent. I wish I'd never wash it for th rest of my life. I love the chat we had. Baby, you gave me a surprise tis mrn too. Lol. I'd say this to you everyday but for today, I wanna add another one. *Thanks for the welcoming gift. Those 4 days not seeing you was terrible for me but it seems that everything could be healed by you today. All those painfulness disappeared right away, leaving me in a cheerful mood. I'd cherish the time we had together. :) I'm really happy today. Thanks and Iloveyou.

Camp 2010

2010-07-30T00:16:00.000-07:00

Lions oi !!!! *oi* yo everybody! just came back after 4 days 3 nights of camp. If you were going to ask me how was it, I'd say it's really tiring. Got a lot of mosquitoes bites which makes me rather fed-up. Alright, this post is really very long so will try to cut short!

1st day : Arrived at Sarimbun Scouts Camp and had our lunch over there. The bus trip was really sian luh. Ilynn keep asking me to smile when I'm feeling down. No handphone, No Laptop, No Tv, No feeling of being at home and lastly, no someone. :( Pitched the tent which makes me sweat sweat. -.-'' Can sleep 8 ppl but i think I won't be able to sleep one luh. Went for Flying Fox/Zipline while some did abseiling. I did flying fox and it's scary ttm. When u are climbing the stairs up, you'll have a kind of feeling that it's getting higher and higher. I tried to hurry and finally reached the top. It's 4 storey above the ground. When it's my turn, Denise & Ilynn were cheering for me below alr. While I was flying down, the feeling is damn shiok luh! shouted their names too. :) weeh ~ i'm a spider girl! Oh nonono, i'm a vampire. :D

Still played Rock Climbing but decided to give up because I could not find any rocks. Atika did the best among the girls. Mr. Yeung also gt play but he halfway also drop down le *laughs* played some games and slowly, it's night alr. Had dinner but could not finish cos when I see Denise eat so fast, I got pressure then dun feel like eating le. At night , it rained. Sadly, nearly all of us had our clothes wet as we put our clothes on the ground. Luckly, mine was on the floorboard so no affect. Bathed a while since the toilet is freaking smelly & dirty. For a person like me, I expect a proper cubicle at least! yucks but no choice luh. Night walk was a dirty one for me. Had to walk over the muds and u can't switch on ur torch cos they purposely want u to experience for urself de. My school shoes was already black on the 1st day liao.

2nd day : The previous night slept beside Yee cheong and she gave me a hard time. I'm her punchbag but nvm luh, since it's a camp, we should enjoy ourselves! Didn't even bother to brush our teeth since all of us were exhausted already. Hahah, frankly speaking, we didn't brush other teeth for 3 nights but we brushed 4 days . Seems confusing right? Aiya dun care luh. Lol..played kayaking & milo pond. Omg, I didn't manage to enjoy myself. Partnered with Aravind for kayaking and he's emo-img that time. We 2 also dunnoe how to kayak then as our kayaks are moving away from the rest, I began to panic cos I was at the front and the deep sea seems to be a terror to me. I'm afraid of seas , I admit. Somemore, the salt water is damn salty. Free salt sia but unless u wan a diarrhoea then go try it. :P

Everyone has to participate in the milo pond so have to sacrifice myself lor. Left with one pair of clean shoes, of course idw to wet my shoes again or later no more shoe to wear. When it's sliding, i was beginning to faint cos of the mud on my hand. However, before I realised that I'm near to the waters alr, i was already down. Waahh the water no taste luh. Accidentally hit my head on a wooden plank and end up a big 'balugoo' on my head. Haix, painful but it'll disappear. Did the low wall which we must help our friends to climb the wall. This requires strength and team work. After 2 times trying, we manage to get a record of 1.5 minutes to get all of us up. Rafting was funny manx. I see them paddle, i wanna laugh lah. I wonder how we build that thing. *grins*

3rd day : Had to do the Sarimbun challenge. Teamwork again zzz. Did CIP at the afternoon and it's super hot. All of us were sweating even the trainers. Had to walk a long distance and my shoes was full of stones which makes me uneasy. After a few hours of walking, finally we managed to finish the race in time. Was earlier than other groups by a couple of hours. Hippee hurray ~ went for bathing earlier. Got our camp t-shirts and the shirt sizes is weird weird de, not according de so i chose size 36 since it's smaller than S. Hehe, finished my dinner & was looking forward to the campfire!!! :B Campfire was super duper funnnnnnnn !!!~~~ I think we tried our best for our cheers and I'm proud of 2E8! All of u did great, especially the dancing part which I find a little pity as both Razi & Rose was nearly in the finals.

4th day : Woke up at 5 am tis mrn cos a lot of things to do today. We needed to clear the place, dispatch our tents and pack our bags. Last night didn't slept well cos it's too cold & I was worrying that it might rain which something bad will occur again. Though it did not rain tis mrn, it rained the rest of the afternoon. A heavy rain instead and causes a lot of inconvenience for all of us. Last day alr mah, why must this kind of thing happen to us again?! Had to find my bag cos all of it were clustered together and almost some of them looks like mine. Did area cleaning and slacked a bit at the teachers' room which had a air-con. The teachers good lor, still got proper beds and air-cons for them to stay. Suay luh cos we sec 2 liao mah. Maybe becos of th another sch that we have to pitch our tents instead of staying in the dormitories.

Everybody was looking forward to the end of the day. Boarded the bus and I looked back at the campsite again. Of course u will have such can't-bear-to-go feeling but u have to accept the fact. It's really dirty there, I threw my plates, forks and spoons, towel and slippers over there [as a way of souvenirs to them] Can't blame me for all of that, all of them were dirty. I threw th plates as it was raining heavily today and I've no time to wash it so might as well throw it away since my mum told me so. Went back to school and did the final briefing. Lions roaaarrrr! I'll miss it luh. The underwear cheer which is so super unique and the instructors too. Thanks for taking of us for th past couple of days! We might be really noisy sometimes... Hehe, that will be all for today. For more info, can visit the camp website for our class which is available through YSS portal

Are there still miracles?

2010-07-26T00:43:00.001-07:00

Morning 7.30 then reached hall cos of th stupid traffic jam but was surprised that there were ppl even later than me. *stunned* Last day of school before camp starts tmr. I hate camp now cos can't bring handphone which means I can't contact my friends & my family. Haix, sad luhs.. somemore, sleeping inside tent leh! still not so bad, just pray that can sleep wif laogong & daughter and not forgetting to mention, my son-in-law and blaa blaa. Just hope it's within our group cos will be very awkward when you're nt sleeping wif ppl u know. Good for mama agnes lah but I think she'll be very lonely. :D just dun miss us too much hor ~ also, take good care of urself! u old le, later anything happen [touch wood] , no one take care u. :P

Lessons today were very relaxing, no homeworks except for english. Wushu today was bad for me, keep injuring myself. Firstly, I twisted my leg a bit when we were kicking then end up, a little painful. Next, when we were supposed to lift our heads and it's some kind of gymnastics. My back and my left hand nearly crack sia... then my back damn pain but it's okay now. Waahh, hope nxt time won't do so 高难度moves. Few years ago i still can luh but nw i old liao :( how am I supposed to be tat energetic again?! hahahah, no use complaining already. Learn to forgive and forget = life's beautiful. Assembly was about ITE. Was telling Pravitha that th school is expecting us to go to ITE? Seems attractive but 100 % nt interested.

Went to cafeteria to accompany yee cheong to buy her lunch. Saw 莫老师 and asked if she's going tmr. She was so happy that she dun nid to go. I keep arguing to her hehehe but u should hear our conversation, damn funny. She not going also good luh, pregnant alr , better dun go. Somemore, we're going to a camp NOT a hotel. Go for wad? stay in office and enjoy the aircon more good luh. We no choice then go but it seems that everything will have a big change if tmr rains. Hopefully, it will not during at night cos I'll shiver. Hope can enjoy my camp? or should I say that hope that time can pass quickly ! I want to stay at home !!! T.T

Though I know that you are old enough to take care of urself but nevertheless, I'm still worried. Promise me that you'll be that happy & cheerful when I'm back. Will miss u lots lots during these couple of days. Baby, first time I'm staying out for so many days without seeing you. :-( Nvm, I love you.

Pests are indeed pests

2010-07-23T02:16:00.000-07:00

Hey all , sorry for not posting yesterday due to lack of time. Have been studying for my science test and had a guitar lesson last night so couldn't find the time to online. I finally how terrible it is , not to online for 1 freaking day! My games, my post, blaa blaa ... i can't live without computers la. Thanks to the inventor who invented computer. (: got a lot of mosquitoes bites on my right leg! Must be bitten during school time , keep on scratching during school. Sci test questions was ??? to me. All I memorized did not come out. #$%&@! of cse I'm pissed okay! waste my time only but nvm luh, If i pass, i still consider as worthwhile. :D Science is one of my weakest subject so must focus a lot of time on it. Probably because chemistry is way too hard ba.

Music lesson was one of th lessons which is th most interesting to me. Hui Si couldn't find the sound she wanted so she wanted me to choose but which ever I pick, she also shake her head. Alright, I noe some sounds are weird and it's unsuitable for our track. I'm a failure, i should say. A person like me whose life revolves around music can't even compose a simple song!! Maybe I'm not cut for music at all. My passion for music is still strong but I've no idea how long I can stay like this. No one trusting me on my music. My ambition is to become a world-class music performer. Be it any musical instrument, I want to belong to the stage. Learnt a new chap. during maths lesson , okay luh quite easy.

Hmm, had assembly today, how unusual. A closing ceremony for the chinese week. Quite cramp luh the hall, can't they make it even bigger? Oh ya, regarding about Mr. Yeung's marriage, I've no idea anymore. If u all wanna know, ask Mr. Yeung straightaway. :P stayed back at school to watch New Moon wif Agnes & Janelle. Waited for that eddy for nearly 20 mins then he finally reached. Muahahah~ guitar leh! Agnes keep on laughing lol! after New Moon, went to NP to buy some food to eat since didn't eat a lot for lunch. Bought my magazine and still got free gifts sia. So 物超所值！Planned to top-up my ez-link card but nobody there so have to walk home. Nvm luh, take it as exercising.

I blame myself for everything. This morning, I thought I could see you as a way of giving me some encouragement for my science test. Yet, I missed you for a few minutes. I have only one chance every morning to see you yet I still lost. If I was earlier by a few minutes, perhaps, you could brighten the rest of my day again. I can only say that , I won't be able to tolerate 3 days of missing you. You're gonna occupy my mind, take away my breathe and will cause me depressed. Oh please, I beg God to at least, let me see you on Monday and Tuesday. At least when I'm leaving, I hope to see your final smile once away. Do you know that you're the reason why I maintained my optimism everyday? Though I've saw you during break time again, 我们插身而过, as if we were strangers. I'm gonna miss you miss you miss you. I have 2 unfulfilled wishes before I leave for my camp. 1 : see your smile , and also , to hear you calling my name once again. Baby. ily

Some songs are used to represent us

2010-07-21T02:41:00.000-07:00

Listening to the karaoke songs now. Hmm, today sch celebrate Racial Harmony Day. Some teachers wear until very nice. Mr. Yeung also nvr wear! Aiya, even Principal oso nvr wear luh! Our class got nobody wear. Muahahaha ~ concert was nice nice. Especially the malay wedding that is meant for us. Woohoo ! Congrats Mr. Ang ! Though it's only a fake one, can sense that he very happy! :D saw Pravitha dancing ! cant stop laughing! *claps for Pravitha* Mr. Ng also damn funny today luh. He wear that Japanese outfit wif a sword, make th atmosphere even higher!After concert, normal lessons continue. Science lesson got one sec 3 guy used his phone to cam our class. Mr. Ang saw and sth happened. No idea wad luh.

Lit lesson was fun fun. Laogong , daughter and I did something bad. :P oh ya, forgot to mention that my daughter come back le. That ah ma of hers still dun wan her to come her leh! :@ so bad! Take care hor daughter! saw u still a bit unwell today. :( eat ur medicine regularly & dun skip meals. Better dun say too much le or else that lao tai po will say i biased again.... Got back history paper le. 17/25 , find it quite okay. Any idea why? I only took 1-2 hour , i only used 1 page to write my answers cos i cant memorize de. U all copy & paste de, i still got rephrase leh. Cam for the YOG thingy. Couldn't stop when we are video-caming Mr. Yeung. P/S : HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALMOND ! :B I noe u wait for my post for damn long alr . Okay luh , no present tis year but gt wishes right?

When I saw you this morning, I was absolutely happy. Laughing to myself at the way you're dressed. I didn't know this would be th surprised u would shock me. When I couldn't find you to tell you how nice you are, I felt hopeless. I searched for u everywhere, hoping that u would be there but you're not. B, when i neglected u once, i finally know how much i care for you. (: bs , imy & ily...

Afraid of the future

2010-07-20T02:39:00.000-07:00

Hey all , post finish then gonna offline le. Just now lost a couple rounds during gaming. Seems that my luck today isn't really that good. Ilynn didn't come today, left me alone. :( lucky got Chermine and Aravind to entertain me. :) Home. Ec Test was a mess up one. Didn't noe wad to do for a few questions. Haix, hope can pass bah . Tmr got no test so can rest. :D History lesson is quite okay today cos Mr. Tan showed us some videos. Haha, he keep making fun of Kar Heng nia. Art was hard for me cos I've no talent and have no idea wad to draw. Lucky got Mr. Wong help me. Agnes go rub away his rubbing, waaa! Hmm. Went back to class for other lessons.

Maths lesson was alright, just don't understand some sums. Chinese teacher didn't come today so have free period. Chiong maths hwk with laogong. She damn good luh. :p at least she's good in her studies though she often bully me. T.T omg ... i cant imagine that my nail is coming out. I went to peel peel then nw it's dropping alr! on the way back , it was raining heavily. Aiyo, i drenched sia. Eeyer ! ask mama take taxi , she dun wan ! :@ then when the bus is moving, there is a flood. Waseh, 1st time in my life seeing a flood! Lol , wonder later Orchard Road is gonna flood again or not. Yay ~ tmr ilynn is coming back! ^.^

Strong-minded

2010-07-19T02:44:00.000-07:00

Quite late update today cos later gonna study. Today's history test was ?? i only wrote one page nia .. see u all write until so much! make me damn nervous haha. Especially Denise, go write until 3 page! wo de tian ~ u all memorize the whole thing uh? just copy and paste nia . Hmm, lucky today dun have geog test or else gaga de. Ms. Chua didn't come today so have a lot of time to study. Wth. My tat laogong keep hitting my head, make me damn dizzy. zzzz lucky u nt enemy or else surely catfight de. :D learnt wushu so can self-defense against her. She very violent de muahaha ~Hehe, Ms. Rohini keep making fun of Kar Heng. Poor him but sometimes he's really irritating , especially with the ' jam ' thingy.

class got thief sia . I mean that someone stole money from our class. Somemore, that person go break the window panel and jump in to steal sia. How daring he is right?! He go steal my mama's $30 leh! waaseh, lucky my wallet and handphone is always with me. Hope can find the culprit luh! Assembly was about the briefing of the Sec 2 Camp. F*** la , cannot bring handphone sia. Wad stupid camp is tis?! i can't live without my handphone and surely I'll miss a lot of ppl de. My family, my outside friends and BD. :P hoho ~ i dun feel like going after knowing wad place is tat. Good luh mama, no nid go. Confirm 3 nights insomnia de.

Only you can bring out the joyful side of me

2010-07-16T01:32:00.000-07:00

Hey, listening to a english song now and it seems to sad. Nvm, i'm the emotional type. Science nearly make me to fall asleep. Ilynn & Denise would know cos they saw my eyes closing. I don't understand a single thing mr. ang has taught us. What he taught was all knowledge + concept. Can he don't be a block headed person? At least Maths are way better than sci cos Mr. Yeung has a sense of humor unlike him. -.-'' music was fun ! Cos everyone was paying attention to my thumbdrive. :D my laogong hor, keep taking it away from me. Played with ROSE. :P tis auntie rosie keep snatching my thumbdrive oso! hahah but she nvm de cos it's been a long time i played wif her! T.T Ms Seng & Ms Alicia oso finds it cute ~ waseh, u tis thumbdrive, so famous liao hor?? o.o

Managed to chiong the chinese compre test. At first, i tot a lot of time so i slowly do but as time is approaching , i keep on chiong-ing liao. Some questions i anyhw do de. Guess my marks won't be tat fantastic too. Ran 5 rounds for P.E and it seems very weird. It's supposed to be hot but the weather is freaking cold . After 5 rounds, I seem to be damn tired. Don't ever ask me to run.. if u wan me to play games for 1 or 2 hour without stopping can , but nvr ask me to run ! run for 1 min, i oso tired leh! :@ hmm, took taxi with mama agnes. Send her back first cos i scared she faint halfway. LOL! kidding nia! nxt mon got 2 tests sia zzz how am I supposed to survive ? somemore, my right hand is damn tired, cant write words! Among so many people, I just wanna hold your hand. I'm extremely glad that u talked to me or rather near me. Your 3rd smile, your first touch and your first 0-0 distance. I'm happy to be loving you.

3rd smile

2010-07-15T00:35:00.000-07:00

Great day for me cos morning got a smile from someone. (: hehe. This Agnes mama of mine is really clever leh , like that oso can guess dao. Hmm, first period is PW. Chermine and I were colouring the painting she did but in th end, we ask Razi to redo a new one. Haix. Eng period was just doing some english essays. Did it rather fast but laogong was panicking cos she havent finish yet. :D P.E was fun fun and fun! only that my right hand is super tired now. It'll shiver whenever i hold something. I've no idea why but it seems that i've no strength. Play 2 v 1 with Pravitha and Chermine. They 2 damn funny luh , i keep smacking then they have no idea where the badminton cock went to. Also played 3 v 1 with lelia, agnes and pravitha. I drove Agnes to craziness. :P Last match played with laogong. Play a slow and easy one cos idw her to scream! muahahah.

Didn't eat a lot of recess cos my energy are all used to play badminton then have no appetite left. Tmr probably won't stay back to watch twilight cos i watched it so many times alr! nxt wk then watch New Moon bahs. Went to AVA for geo & cdl lesson. Watched the Army Days halfway then Ms shila [idk her name] came in. Aiyo , watched halfway alr then went to switch off! #%$@&! 2 more wks to camp, gonna miss my home, my laptop and everything. I'll have lots of pimples when i come back and my hair is going to be so dry! 10 mins of bathing time , dun expect to take ur own sweet time. Sleep in the tent somemore, i think i can die luh. I'll stay awake for 3 nights and u won't be surprised to see a panda when i come back. :B it's true okay! Mosquitoes... zzz . 4 days of hardship ~

你不在的时候 When you're not around

2010-07-14T00:44:00.000-07:00

hmm, kinda miss sec 1 time. Miss how 'innocent' we are, the first impression on our friends and etc. Still remember that my 1st impression on mama was that , she looks older than me and I tot she my senior sia!! Cos that time she register No. 1 then she looks kinda of senior to me. Haha but now, she's my mama! :) As for Ilynn, the 1st time i saw her was at the auditorium. Both of us were standing over there, we didn't talk cos we still dunnoe each other. So we 2 stand far far from each other. Lol , the 1st person I talked to was Pravitha. I go say , '' a lot of ants hor? so dirty.. '' and she was laughing. -.-'' Idiot way to start a conversation with her! :( Alright, that's all 1 year ago. We seem to be more ''mature'' now. 5 months before all of us separate. Gonna miss all of u ~ especially laogong and daughter. Not forgetting mama, xiao qiang n my gan family.

You all must be wondering wat's wrong with me. I'm fine okay, just that miss the memories of Sec 1 where someone is still my best friend. We seem to be strangers now, i really want you as my friend back. If I hadn't broke my promise, she'd still be my good friend.... Alright , school's pretty enjoyable too. Science that time, didn't pay attention to what Mr. Ang is saying luh. Makes no sense to me anyway. Just thinking about the next wk sci test. Hehe. Went to IT lab for chinese lesson. Mr. Tan didn't come today as he got sth else. Played guessing game wif Ilynn & the rest. Damn funny luh . :P IT time, went around th school to videocam. But in th end, we film nothing much. Didn't do the interviews oso. Okay, that's all for today. :B Have to go for gaming alr!

Just hoping it'll never change

2010-07-13T00:42:00.001-07:00

Hello, left with 15 mins to post cos i wanna go play game. (: Home econs today make me rather hungry. Played with Ilynn and I lost to her. She can argue to me a lot! Say i nvr cook for her, nvr do first-aid for her and blaa blaa ~ daughter uh, blame ur papa la :-) He nvr teach me how cook, and i scared of fire so how am I suppose to cook for u? Or u go ask ur lao ah ma cook for her? later she forget to turn off the stove then u 2 become roast pig liao! :D

Art time, i'd no idea what to draw so we ask mr. wong lor. He told us lots of stuffs and Chermine and I have to do the painting. Unfortunately, the paper tore apart. WTH ... stupid paper! :@ maths still alright. Got that camp which i think i'm gonna die without using my laotop. Heng uh, handphone gt internet but my bill is going to boom. Lol . Was supposed to go to IT lab but it was booked so headed back to class. Bus-ed home wif mama.

World Cup

2010-07-12T04:42:00.000-07:00

When there's only one victory, everyone will strive. Hmm, watched yesterday's World Cup match. Spain Vs Holland , Holland had chances to score but they missed it. :( Bro bet $100 for Spain and he won while mum and I lost. I can only say that Spain is really strong. Something different about Spain VS Holland & Spain VS Germany is that Holland they all dare to tackle u while Germany , they don't want to get any cards and therefore, they lost the chance. I must say that Spain's goalkeeper is not bad , he's the captain somemore.

When I see the ending, Spain was having all the glory to themselves, I pity the Hollands. They had nothing, worse than Germany. At least Germany can walk one round and have their photos taken. Everything ended at around 5.30 am and went back to sleep. I guess after so many nights , tonight i can sleep comfortably. :) Newspaper were out, Paul The Octopus predicted correctly. I've no idea how he predict but it seems miracle. I've to wait 4 more years to see Germany again. T.T I bet Klose won't play anymore le zzz. Hope 4 yrs later, the coach won't change bah.

- School was laughing laughing laughing. Early in the morning already got ppl talking about tis mrn's match. Hahah, that Chermine is promoted to Octopus already :D LOL! drama art was ok, the drama teacher nvr come so lax lax. Science lesson : nearly fall asleep again. Hehehe , was totally hungry already. During recess, I was squeezed in the middle of Denise & Ilynn. Wth.. nearly become a hamburger liao or rather a roti prata! :@ this laogong of mine, everytime bully me de. Haix, no wonder my mama always say i am 泼出去的水. Aiya, she also wad ! married le but nw widow. Muahahah ~

Maths : I must say that Mr. Yeung is way better than Mr. Ang. He can use experiments to show us unlike that dead-boring teacher. A little pity that he wasted the tea. Learnt about total surface blaa blaa. Just now was doing maths with Aravind. I think I'm too noisy le, keep disturbing him. Nevertheless, he's really a helpful person. Helped me since Sec 1 and he's my best male friend! :P woohoo, if weren't for him, i wouldn't have done so many of my sums correcly. He's been a great helper. Alright, that's all for today. Have nothing else to say alr, just keep tagging my blog alrights?!

3 in 1

2010-07-09T00:04:00.000-07:00

Hello everybody! Totally unfit today cos of one reason - sick. Got flu, sore throat [which seems to be quite okay nw] and ulcer which causes me the most inconvenience. :( got difficulty speaking and eating luh. Hope can get well soon ~ listening to this year NDP song. Find it quite okay, compared to last year one which I can't remember at all. Hmm, school's pretty fun for the first half of the day. Played a game during maths lesson. Mr. Yeung is so good :D still let us play game sia. Played with Lukris, Wei hao, Ilynn and Denise. Family united (: haha. Was bankrupt for a while then borrowed from lukris but eventually, I became rich! Laogong own me $740 cos she own too much money hehe.

Oh yea, today yeecheong's & my idol release album liao. Listening to it now. monday school starting at 9am. Woohooo ! My school is so gd :P the parent's letter say that it becos of what dunnoe wad education but the main thing is that : THE TEACHERS ALSO WAN WATCH WORLD CUP! LOL! finding excuses for themselves but also good luh, i can watch but its 2.30am leh. WTH. I've no idea whether i can wake up or not cos i'm sleeping like a dead log. Hmm, Germany's gonna be the 3rd! i've faith in them!! ^.^ I miss you when you're not around. I can't see you, I'm worried. Hope to see you soon. I don't want to lose you too.

Once you get into my nerves, don't ever try to escape.

2010-07-08T00:40:00.000-07:00

Using Germany's lucky colour to write this post. I'm gonna pour out all my troubles in here so get ready! Yesterday , 2.30 am match , Germany VS Spain, cause me to break down. It dealt a great blow to me. I've expected the results but I don't want to give up. I don't believe that a octupus can predict something correctly. But after yesterday or should I say this early morning, I realised that it's real. I woke up in the middle of the night, hoping that I can see Germany scoring but my effort is wasted. Everything's gone in a minute. I don't blame the Germans cos i know they did their best. Spain is really good at defending. They keep on attacking , leaving no chance for the Germans.

In my heart , Germany is my fav. team out of so many countries. They lost by 1 goal. Not very bad but a important goal. Now I pray that they will get at least a third place. As for the final match , I hope that Holland will win. (: I won't let the team which caused my fav. team to win this World Cup. Afterall, Holland is my father's favourite team cos their jersey is orange which is the same as my father's company colour. Germany oh germany, i cried for you all and stayed awake the whole night. I'm proud of you all ; really . Klose, I knew u did your best. :-) Jiayous for the next World Cup which I hope that it will come... :(

Alright, enough of the World Cup. If I hadn't watch in the first place, I wouldn't have been so engrossed. Engross in the way that I came to sch this morning emo-ing , trying to fight back the tears. Drawing the names of the players during science lesson. Reading every article that involves Germany. Staying awake just to watch them play. That's all & let's put it to a end. No wonder how much u dun bear , u can't do anything about it.

*cool* Sch's pretty alright today. Drama lesson caught us in a confusing way. Was appointed the role of ''mother'' and costume designer [with chermine]. I wanted to be the sound director but someone took it away. :@ skip skip ~ [there's nth to talk abt for sci] recess was something I'm looking forward too! :D damn hungry already. Maths test was okay? I dunnoe.. but i got a few questions correct. Hope can get my target score! :B geo okok de. Did a essay for english then Denise make Ilynn and I laugh. She went to translate all the words into chinese and it sounds weird!! :P she still go sing song ~ hehehe. Bus-ed home wif Agnes mama aka 大肥猪.

Scary scary

2010-07-07T01:51:00.000-07:00

Just now got a flash of lightning, i chuatio sia. Forget about it :( hmm, science lesson today was sian to ttm! I almost fell asleep cos i've no idea what Mr. Lim is talking about. If he continues to use scientific methods to teach us , i confirm won't understand de. He's totally boring ~ Mother Tongue, that time , lao gong doze off ! lucky i wake her up. :D Went for recess, was totally hungry alr. :p Haha, went back to class. Denise & I were fighting sia!! :@ she very bad leh.. i hit her 1 time, she hit me so many time! wonder why i marry him . Muahahaha~ cannot complain le or else she'll mess up my hair sooner or later. Science again. I seriously dun like chemistry luh. Won't take chemistry nxt year!

Literature : Mr. James picked Denise and Ilynn for the role of Dawan and Bao. I damn heng ok! keep laughing only. Bleh bleh ~ only can say laogong today very suay, tio pick 2 times today by th same teacher. LOL! History lesson was quite fun cos got air con! :) watched a video and discuss about some topics. IT lesson was funny! Lao gong and I keep pushing away the bags cos Mr. Zahlan keep stepping on the bags! Bad uh him!! bus-ed home with mama. She's a very bad person luh!! today gang up wif some of them come bully me. T.T hope tonight can watch Germany's match. *sob sob* 2.30 am leh zzz . I LOVE GERMANY !!! LOVE ALL THE FOOTBALLERS! :B wish me good luck for tmr's maths test.

What you think is what you dream.

2010-07-06T01:56:00.000-07:00

Yo everybody! Gonna off laptop le so wanna post something quick. D&T was horrible to me. Although cooking may be fun but washing, cutting and all the processes isn't easy. Today we baked a apple crumble thingy. Should say that it's weird cos u have to make it into small pieces using your hands. Not used to it of course. I don't even know how to cook okay!! I threw one dish cloth away cos it's dirty and i have no plastic bag. Don't expect me to put it into my bag. And ours is like .... rotten apple ! :D hehe, dun dare to eat luh! Zhi Han cut his finger and it was bleeding so much. Our group and his group use th same basin mah, then i was washing my dishes when suddenly, got blood drip down. I wonder why, then realised he's bleeding! Oh my god.

Recess time got free ice-cream but didn't eat cos no time already. Headed back to class for history. Mr. Lim damn funny sia (: purposely go make fun of Kar Heng, make the whole class laugh until dunnoe like what. Continue our art and today's one was a little bit challenging. Honestly speaking, I've no talent for art so dun expect any beautiful drawings from me. Maths was alright but hoping that time could pass faster cos i wanna go home :P thursday got maths test leh.. haven't even start revising. Did compo during chinese lesson. 莫老师cut her hair seh. Actually morning saw already. I think she wans to 释放情绪. Lol ! Hurry to get home so didn't wait for mama . Sorry luh.. :( i feel guilty leh! psps!

We tend to miss something when it's over.

2010-07-02T04:15:00.000-07:00

Finally my laptop is okay le, everytime got connection problem when my brother on his laptop first. Dunnoe why leh, everytime i must on my laptop 1st or else surely can't connect de. Hmm, i like Fridays the most cos can go home early and th next 2 days no nid to study. I can really die of boredom in school. Teachers teaching non-understandable syllabus and classmates quarrelling over small matters. Haix, I must say that the 1 month break really make me damn fed-up. If we didn't have that 1 mth break, i'd be like th person 1 mth ago and not so 心事重重. School's really boring, how i wish i could go to the future now and make my dreams come true. My desire car, my desire job and all the things i want.

SADLY, we can't . But for some ppl , they would rather go back to the past ; their schools when they grow older. I do miss my primary school and my primary school friends too. How we interact for 6 years, how our friendship gets stronger each day and how we overcome every difficulty. Well, i must say that it's really quite a memorable one. Though i wasn't a really clever student, i do miss the way teacher scolded me for not being good. Yeah, i do learn from it and now, I don’t dare to bring a single book less for each single lesson cos I’m worried of being scolded. That explains my heavy bag everyday. (: It's always better to be safe than sorry, right? I'd rather heavy bags than getting scolded by teacher.

Alright, enough of this crappy nonsense. Promised Agnes Lim then I'd write her 500 words long post so i think this is sufficient already. Not paying attention to Mr. Ang when he's teaching cos when i dun understand sth, i will not ask teacher de. I'd rather do sth i like and in th end, my results become like that. Yeah, i seriously have no interest in something i dun like. You force me also no use. I began to understand some of th maths stuffs so okay luh. Thanks to Denise for helping me :D anw, happy birthday once again. Didn't really wish u tis morning, hope u like th card i gave u ! :) My mama and my daughter also got give u presents le, see u so big! Hahaha.

After school went to AMK Hub to watch [The Twilight Saga : Eclipse] something which i've been counting down to for th last couple of months. You all have no idea how much I like this whole freaking movies! I can scream when i see Jacob's muscles. Heheh. Would rate tis movie 4/5 . 1 mark less cos too much PG scenes!!! eeyer, dunnoe how many kissing scenes & also we sat on the front rows but was still okay for me as i was sitting at the corner. Quite cold too but lucky gt bring jacket. Thanks Mum for changing my bag too. ^.^ Good movie i would say. Definitely better than th past 2 movies. Stephanie Meyer just makes things go alive. I'm proud.

Always be my baby

2010-07-01T02:19:00.000-07:00

It's really a busy day for me cos later on still nid to do homework, watch tv and attend guitar lesson. Today will be a fun lesson i hope cos I'm learning a new song (: my favourite song and i wanna dedicate tis song for someone . :D hmm. Frankly speaking, i don't understand wth our sci teacher is talking about. Now only sec 2 and teach us so chim stuffs , i think i'm taking bio nxt year, got no interest on physics and pure. I prefer life science . Forgot to bring my maths textbook today, a lot of ppl also nvr bring but as for me, of couse i scared luh. Somemore, Mr. Yeung's temper is quite fierce today after he scolded half of th class for being late. Luckily, went there earlier :p

Seriously , I hate drama lesson now. I used to like it a lot but after we swapped teachers, i hate it ttm. I prefer Ms Seng cos she's more funny than that teacher. Haix, i dun think i'll ever like drama lesson again. I will hate it. Geo was really sad ... had no idea why Ms Rohini wan show us those sad pictures. I couldn't bear to look at it leh. After school, went to Np eat cos i'm hungry already. :P Took 800 and was tio disrupted by Agnes & Ilynn who was disturbing me. bought pasta and saw some primary school friends. Shopped around and bought a handphone strap since mine is already rusty. Tmr gonna watch Eclipse le ~ here i come !!!